Mary Lambert - Heart On My Sleeve Album Lyrics

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Secrets

I've got bi-polar disorder
My shit's not in order
I'm overweight
I'm always late
I've got too many things to say
I rock mom jeans, cat earrings
Extrapolate my feelings
My family is dysfunctional
But we have a good time killing each other

[Pre-Chorus:]
They tell us from the time we're young
To hide the things that we don't like about ourselves
Inside ourselves
I know I'm not the only one who spent so long attempting to be someone else
Well I'm over it

[Chorus:]
I don't care if the world knows what my secrets are (secrets are)
I don't care if the world knows what my secrets are (secrets are)
So what
So what
So what
So what

I can't think straight, I'm so gay
Sometimes I cry a whole day
I care a lot, use an analog clock
And never know when to stop
And I'm passive, aggressive
I'm scared of the dark and the dentist
I love my butt and won't shut up
And I never really grew up

They tell us from the time we're young
To hide the things that we don't like about ourselves
Inside ourselves
I know I'm not the only one who spent so long attempting to be someone else
Well I'm over it

I don't care if the world knows what my secrets are (secrets are)
I don't care if the world knows what my secrets are (secrets are)
So what
So what
So what
So what

I don't care if the world knows what my secrets are (secrets are)
I don't care if the world knows what my secrets are (secrets are)
So what
So what
So what
So what
(I don't care if the world knows what my secrets are)
So what
So what
So what
So what

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So Far Away

I'm a million miles away from anywhere
Slide my hands across the sheet
Pretend you're there
But missing you is a slow burn
Every time the earth turns
I'm reminded that night is only half the time

Even when I'm hurting
I know that this is worth it
Tell me it'll be alright
Gotta give me something
To get me through the nothing
One more night
Kiss me like the world is gonna disappear
I'm a better person when I have you here
I got you and I can get though anything
As long as I can see your face
Right now you're so far away
So far away, so far away, so far away
So far away, so far away, so far away

I don't need a map
To tell me where you are
You and I come from the same star
Every day is a heart ache
And every night I lie awake
I'm reminded the bed is only half mine

Even when I'm hurting
I know that this is worth it
Tell me it'll be alright
Gotta give me something
To get me through the nothing
One more night
Kiss me like the world is gonna disappear
I'm a better person when I have you here
I got you and I can get though
Anything as long as I can see your face
Right now you're so far away
So far away, so far away, so far away
So far away, so far away, so far away

Nobody's got the time, nobody's got the time
For love
Nobody's got the time, nobody's got the time
For love

Kiss me like the world is gonna disappear
I'm a better person when I have you here
I got you and I can get though
Anything as long as I can see your face
Kiss me like the world is gonna disappear
I'm a better person when I have you here
I got you and I can get though
Anything as long as I can see your face
Right now you're so far away
So far away, so far away, so far away

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Ribcage


Living in the darkness
I wear it like a crown
Oh I've got tough skin
Ready for my bow
All I've got is two hands
I tied them in the middle
Ready for the red tape
To open up my ribcage

I offer souvenirs
A deaf tongue and blinded ears
Can you fill the shelves in here
Come in come in

Everybody look around
Everybody look around
I don't know how to fill the space
The invitation's on the page
Open up my ribcage

Want you to want me like I'm all you got
Mama see's seeing it but can't make me stop
Telling the truth it might mean you get broken
But letting it hurt that's my method of coping
Doubt in season like that smoke in my lungs
What they project on me what I've become
Down on my knees unsure what to say
No I never learned how to prey
Don't know, know who I been fooling
But you got me running in circles I'm ruined
Let you inside opened up all my wounds
Taking my ribcage and ripped it in two

Everybody look around
Everybody look around
I don't know how to fill the space
The invitation's on the page
Open up my ribcage

Tie off all my tendons
Watch how they stretch
Oh I've got the muscle
But lord, I'm spent
Knocking down my sternum
Began at a young age
Too much space between
Open up my ribcage

I offer souvenirs
A deaf tongue and blinded ears
Can you fill the shelves in here
Come in come in

Everybody look around
Everybody look around
I don't know how to fill the space
The invitation's on the page
Open up my ribcage

There's impenetrable silence inside of my head
There's nothing I can buy when I'm practically dead
I get so tired of writing everything I should have said
That maybe this time I'll put my pen down and just tell you instead
You see I opened up my ribcage and violins flew out
The organs softly played through my violin mouth
I got lights hotter than love hidden beneath my tongue
Written on my skin
It tells me your the one

Everybody look around
Everybody look around
I don't know how to fill the space
The invitation's on the page
Open up my ribcage

Open up my ribcage
Open up my ribcage
Open up my ribcage
Open up my ribcage

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Dear One

Where did you come from, bright star
What heaven did you leap from, dear love
How can I spell your name without the sound of
Autumn underneath my tongue
Without acknowledging the lovers who bent me in half
Bless them for bringing me to you
How can I say your name without
Also breathing the words
"My god, I found you"
How can I ever speak again with this mouth
When it has found where it belongs
When you touch me
I am a bed of calla lilies
I will make a house for you and fill it with evergreens
I will paint sunsets on every wall
So you can only see beautiful things
How can I say "love" without wanting to fold myself into you
Like a thousand paper cranes
Dear one
I was halved the moment I was born
The other piece of me is inside your mouth
And I was found whole the moment you spoke

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When You Sleep

One foot in front of the other
Keep breathing just like they taught you
You politely asked to take a walk with me
I would've married you there underneath the trees
Is it real, this thing?
Is it real, ooh, this thing?

I could make you happy
I could make you love me
I could disappear completely
I could be your love song
I could be long gone
I could be a ghost in your eardrum
When you sleep, will it be with me?
When you sleep, will it be with me?

I swore I saw you in a dream
All dressed in white and wide smile
You politely asked to take a walk with me
And I married you there underneath the trees
Can you feel the beat of my heartbeat beat through me?
Can you feel the beat of my heartbeat beat through?

I could make you happy
I could make you love me
I could disappear completely
I could be your love song
I could be long gone
I could be a ghost in your eardrum
When you sleep, will it be with me?
When you sleep, will it be with me?

How did I miss you, when I didn't know you? (Ooh)
How did I miss you, when I didn't know you? (Ooh)
How did I miss you, when I didn't know you? (Ooh)
How did I miss you, when I didn't know you? (Ooh)

I could make you happy
I could make you love me
I could disappear completely
I could be your love song
I could be long gone
I could be a ghost in your eardrum
I could make you happy
I could make you love me
I could disappear completely
Be with me when you sleep
Be with me

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Chasing The Moon

We went out to the city in your friend's Chevy
You and me stumbled in the backseat ready
Laughing at the top of my lungs
Said "I'll never get old,"
I'll never get old

We got lost on our way home from the city
All the lights had us thinking we were infinitely
Bigger, brighter, bolder, ready
Said "I'll never get old"
I'll never get old

[Chorus:]
Chasing the moon when I was on your front porch
All the days felt like chasing the sunrise into the morning
Feels like I'm
Chasing the moon

I got caught hiding bottles in my bedroom
Kelsey laughed, she said "you never learn, do you"
Every night had me hanging on the thrill of it
Sneaking out my house, waiting for your kiss

None of us ever felt beautiful
Telling secrets in the backseat confessional
Couldn't understand the meaning of our glory days
But we'll never get old
We'll never get old

[Chorus:]
Chasing the moon when I was on your front porch
All the days felt like chasing the sunrise into the morning
Feels like I'm

Run, run, run as fast as we can
Run, run, run and never look back
Run, run, run as fast as we can
Run, run, run and never look back

Chasing the moon

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Jessie's Girl

Jessie is a friend,
Yeah I know he's been a good friend of mine
But lately something's changed
It ain't hard to define
Jessie's got himself a girl
And I want to make her mine
And she's watching him with those eyes
And she's lovin' him with that body, I just know it!
And he's holding her in his arms late, late at night

I wish that I had Jessie's girl
I wish that I had Jessie's girl
Where can I find her, a woman like that?

I'll play along with this charade
That doesn't seem to be a reason to change
You know I feel so dirty when they start talking cute
I wanna tell her that I love but the point is probably moot
'Cause she's watching him with those eyes
And she's lovin' him with that body, I just know it!
And he's holding her in his arms late, late at night

I wish that I had Jessie's girl
I wish that I had Jessie's girl
Where can I find her, a woman like that?

Like Jessie's girl
I wish that I had Jessie's girl
Where can I find her, a woman...
Where can I find her, a woman like that?

And I'm lookin' in the mirror all the time
Wonderin' what she don't see in me
I've been funny; I've been cool with the lines
Ain't that the way love's supposed to be?
Tell me why can't I find a woman like that?

I wish that I had Jessie's girl
I wish that I had Jessie's girl
Where can I find her, a woman like that?

Like Jessie's girl
I wish that I had Jessie's girl
I want, I want Jessie's girl

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Monochromatic

Every morning it's the same thing
Sidewalks of people with who cares stares
My heart's too big for this city
My heart's too big for my own body
My heart's too big for you to understand me

[Chorus:]
When I close my eyes
I dream in color
But my life's in black and white
Will it ever get better
I'm not monochromatic
Nobody's monochromatic

Everybody's hurting
There's nothing more human than that
See the pieces of heart's missing
But watch how the light fills the cracks
My heart's too big for the city
My heart's too big for my own body
My heart's too big for you to understand me
Please understand me

[Chorus:]
When I close my eyes
I dream in color
My life's in black and white
But it'll get better
I'm not monochromatic
Nobody's monochromatic
Nobody's monochromatic
I'm not monochromatic

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Heart On My Sleeve

Let me be your porch light
Your favorite star on the best night
A good year, a good fight (let me be)
Let me be a night walk
Locked eyes in the midday sun spark
Good love your whole life

Let me be, one hand, finding one hand
Two hearts making amends
With themselves at their end
Cause I'm not sure who I was before
But the day I saw you at your door
You opened up the things I shut, the things I shut

Fast speed, got my heart on my sleeve
You're the one I gotta have
Might be just what I need
You're the one I gotta have

Let me be your compass
The light that you see in a sunset
Good love, your whole life

Let me be one hand, finding one hand
Two hearts making amends
With themselves at their end
I'm not sure who I was before
But the day I saw you at your door
You opened up the things I shut, the things I shut

Fast speed, got my heart on my sleeve
You're the one I gotta have
Might be just what I need
You're the one I gotta have

[2x]
I could be
Let me be
I could be your
I could be your heart speed
Running as fast as the beat would take us

Yeah

Fast speed, got my heart on my sleeve
You're the one I gotta have
Might be just what I need
You're the one I gotta have

You're the one I gotta have
You're the one I gotta have

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Wounded Animal

I carried your heart
Like a wounded animal, soft
I kept my condolences to myself, soft
I spent my last hours defending how I fell

[Chorus:]
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
I didn't try harder
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
I didn't try at all
I lost myself when I found you in the fall
I left it all
I lost myself when I found you in the fall
I left it all

I carried your love
With a kind of urgency, scared
I kept all my senses from feeling you too much

[Chorus:]
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
I didn't try harder
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
I didn't try at all
I lost myself when I found you in the fall
I left it all
I lost myself when I found you in the fall
I left it all

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
I didn't try harder
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
I didn't try at all

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Sum Of Our Parts

This is my skin that I've never fit in
I was born the queen of nowhere
This is how it begins
I wonder is this your life
Were you raised in deep water
Are they pushing you down
Are you gonna push harder

I want to know who ever broke you
I want to know how you can grow bigger
Don't go looking for some kind of rescue
You are the only one who can save you

We are, we are more than our scars
We are, we are more than the sum of our parts
We are, we are more than our scars
We are, we are more than the sum of our parts

I didn't know I was a phoenix
Till I learned how to speak
Even with ashes in my mouth
I was still born to breath
I wonder are you like me
Were you left in the fire
Are you raising yourself
Above your father's empire

I want to know who ever broke you
I want to know how you can grow bigger
Don't go looking for some kind of rescue
You are the only one who can save you

We are, we are more than our scars
We are, we are more than the sum of our parts
We are, we are more than our scars
We are, we are more than the sum of our parts

(I burn bright)
Look how bright we are
Look at all the things we have come from
Sometimes it hurts when you become them
Sometimes I bury myself in my own wreckage and
Don't want to come out
Which part of you is still in the wreckage?
Which part of you clipped your own wings?
Which part of you will begin at your own end?
Which part of you will you let live again?

We are, we are more than our scars
We are, we are more than the sum of our parts
We are, we are more than our scars
We are, we are more than the sum of our parts

More than our scars
More than the sum of our parts

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Sing To Me

Oh my god, how can I feel so much
Impossible to feel your touch
Across cities
I was never ready for
The kind of love that you possess
Say that there is nothing else
You'd ever need

You're my wonder
I'm found
When you sing to me
You're my wonder
I'm found
When you sing to me

Love, love, love
I'm your symphony
I'm miles away
But my voice carries

Yes my dear
We travel across deserts and heartbreak
All for just one day
To feel lightning
Lie next to me
Hold my hands to your chest
Say that there is nowhere else
You'd rather be

You're my wonder
I'm found
When you sing to me
You're my wonder
I'm found
When you sing to me

Love, love, love
I'm your symphony
I'm miles away
But my voice carries

Love, love, love
I'm your symphony
I'm miles away
But my voice carries

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Assembly Line

One thing I know
I'm not the same girl
I couldn't speak
You were too loud in my world
But just because you make noise
You're not powerful
You're not powerful
I've got the last word
Slow down, slow down, slow down
I've got to be heard

[Chorus:]
I'm not a pretty machine in your assembly line
Trying to do what I can, but it's terrifying
I'm taking back all my things and my borrowed time
This life is mine, this life is mine
Running in circles
Running in circles
Running in circles

I'm asking for air
Don't let me suffocate
This isn't love
The world that you have created
I'm standing my ground
While the earth shakes
While the earth shakes
Let the earth shake

[Chorus:]
I'm not a pretty machine in your assembly line
Trying to do what I can, but it's terrifying
I'm taking back all my things and my borrowed time
This life is mine, this life is mine
Running in circles
Running in circles
Running in circles

I made peace with the part of me that couldn't leave
I made peace with the part of me that couldn't speak

[Chorus:]
I'm not a pretty machine in your assembly line
Trying to do what I can, but it's terrifying
I'm taking back all my things and my borrowed time
This life is mine, this life is mine
Running in circles
Running in circles
Running in circles