From the Album: Deceased (1992)
The Life I Hate
kill me kill me now
my mind is flashing
iridescent shades of red
watching me dying
fantastic dream in my head
why must I live
its my choice
by right I should die
repeated reasoning
then I think maybe I should try
edge of my silver
gleams from the light
my mind screams this is the night
curse me and let me die
I screeach out loud
"release me"
I hate this life
you must let me go
first shaving of flesh and meat
hangs from my arm
watching my blood spurt and spill
makes me grow alarmed
halfway is not good enough
I cant bear this pain
red is splashing now silently like rain
twirling and twisting
I feel dizziness
my throat swells up
not only is there chunks and blood
and now I vomit-I threw up
this horrid mess Im creating
a sight I must endure
to exit life and enter death
this is my cure
seeing my blood dance down walls
tears stream down my face
I watch in awe
a collage of frenzied and confused thoughts
saliva meets blood as it strings from my jaw
kill me kill me now
cure me and let me die
I screeach out loud
"release me"
I hate my life
f*ck off world
now I go
Thanks to saintseiya23 for adding these lyrics