Mama it's only the family it's only us we all we got
Gotta say I'm sorry for the mess that I caused
For the laws that I broke and all the cases I lost
For the drugs that I sold and for the times I got caught
Paid lawyers 10 G's for my freedom they fought
Even though you know I f*cked up you stayed right by my side
Strong queen you kept the tears off your beautiful eyes
Didn't wanna show me pain you just look and you smile
I just want you to know you're the strongest woman alive
Told me keep my head high when I just wanted to quit
Paranoid I'm bout to f*cking lose my mind in this bitch
Staring at these four walls I ain't thinking a shit
But that's the life I chose and this what's coming with it
Full a clips hit a lick I gotta get me some shit
Manifest and invest with this money I get
Bought a script sold it all I had to double this bitch
Ride around selling pounds didn't think of a snitch
Put the key up in the front door and all I seen is the cops
Stressed out in the cell gotta get this thinking and stop
Even though I stood tall that shit shattered my heart
Never thought a little bid would get us drifting apart
Got me on a deportation list they sending me back
Staring through my rearview like where the f*ck I was at
Gotta numb the f*cking pain popping prescription pills
Got money is it for the food or paying the bills
Can't believe this f*cked up life but it is what it is
I know you looking at me now but all I seen was the blood
Got me cold hearted ma who the f*ck do I trust
They try to give a nigga 20 years for selling some drugs
Seen you in and out of court I wanna up at the judge
Can't let it go till today I'm still holding a grudge
Four five in my hand and I'm ready to bust
Hearing your voice in my head son enough is enough