Apollotone - I'm Not Talking Lyrics

I'll be honest with ya
Mentally I'm f*cked up
I ain't never lucked up
The game never loved us
I worked hard for everything I got and somehow I still get f*cked
MUSE, Love, Lust and Trust
I think it's ridiculous my nigga
I found my best friend in the swisher
Never thought I could get sicker
Just keep me away from the liquor
I notice my dreams ending quicker
Maybe I ain't getting no sleep
It's not my choice to be cheap
Its been like this all 52 weeks
I'm not careful my nose just might bleed
I think about you all the time
I mean I think about this all the time
Saying names never been my thing
But you my partner in crime
There you go, There you go
They treat me like lucky like there he go
I'm really wicked there's no ego
I just can't be around everybody in the room
They always talking about the music
Bringing up me and the muses
And then they asking how I'm doing
And If I was to tell the truth
They'd probably think Im off the rufies
The flow got sicker Happy cruising
Only answer that I'm choosing
Only one that I deserve
But at the moment getting served
A plate from hell being force fed
Might f*ck around and bust a nerve
Fight the shit
I can't even help that I'm fighting it
I don't remember inviting it
I treat the music like Vicodin
Dont be scared I think I'm liking it
Manipulation at its finest
Mind games for the full timers
Closest thing to getting Alzheimer's
The stress is coming out as blood
You'd think I'm talking bout my hood
But the bar is so high for me
Jumping off the porch won't do it
That's the truth my nigga
If you only knew my niggas
You'd look at me like how you do it
Then keep it moving my Nigga
I'm not the one to be playing with
On the verge of really spraying shit
My heart is a cuban link with all the pressure im playing with
Coal with some flare in it
No other way to compare the shit
After that ain't no way that I'm scared of shit
You think I'm mad about some sneak disses
You hurting yourself playing