Shellshocked Video (MV)

If I love you
Is that a menage-a-trois?
I don't love him no more
But he's left marks on my heart
And he hated me cause I reminded him of himself
Everything he was not
I tried to fix him, tried to be his help
Some people wonder why I am alone
Why I never got a man
They just don't understand
I'm tryna love myself again
And it's cold out here for an open heart
That's why I keep it on lock
I'm sitting lonely, lonely, lonely
And I'm shellshocked
Oh
Oh
And I'm shellshocked
Oh
Oh
If I need you
Am I a damsel in distress (damsel in distress)
It's hard to open to love
Old habits die hard, I guess (oh)
All you want to do is hold me close like I'm a treasure
But I'm buried underwater
Under all of my regrets
Some people wonder why I am alone
Why I never got a man
They just don't understand
I'm tryna love myself again
And it's cold out here for an open heart
That's why I keep it on lock
I'm sitting lonely, lonely, lonely
And I'm shellshocked
Oh
Oh
And I'm shellshocked
Oh
Oh
And I'm shellshocked
Oh
Oh
And I'm shellshocked
Oh
Oh
I'm fighting myself to let me win
I'm fighting myself to let you in
But I can't base my self esteem on whether you love me
No, I can't base my self esteem on whether you love me
Cause I believed him for so long
And I fought so hard to be so strong
Some people wonder why I am alone
Why I never got a man
They just don't understand
I'm tryna love myself again
And it's cold out here for an open heart
That's why I keep it on lock
I'm sitting lonely, lonely, lonely
And I'm shellshocked
Oh
Oh
Oh
Oh ooh
Oh
Oh I'm shellshocked
Yeah
And I'm shellshocked