Shadows Video (MV)

Lost in the dark Looking for some motivation
Staring at the wall Want a different situation
Holding up my stress But it's breaking me down
Life is such a mess Feels like I will drown
Crawling on my knees For what feels like a few lives
Cleaning all the wounds From way more than a few knives
Stabbed in my back, stabbed through my heart, fading black
Grabbed at my art, grabbed at my soul, armor cracks
Have I ever been whole? Have I ever been One?
Got this pit in my stomach Will I end it with gun?
Would you like to get better?
You know I wanna get free
You think anyone cares?
Well they might if they could see
How much hurt, I been hiding Deep inside, it's frightening
Feel the anguish rising And the gulf keeps widening
Hurting from abuse That I've never spoken of
Never had a truce No protection from above
What I'm going through is real Wanna learn how to deal
Wanna learn how to cope Wanna learn how to change
Learn to evolve and learn to arrange
All of my thoughts so they don't feel so strange
*laughing*
My demons drag me down To the gutter To the grave
My demons drag my down To the chains That enslave
Emotions hold you tight Addiction makes you feel great
Hold it even closer, it ain't really what you hate
You hate feeling lost You hate feeling numb
Give into the addiction, running's hopeless, are you dumb?
I'm not dumb I'm not stupid I see through all your illusions
The lies you peddle, the deceit you praise
Just rusted metal and a too-thin haze
But you need us, Zane Oh you know it's true
Cause without us here What is left for you?
You can't breath You can't hope You can't think
You can't cope You can't hear You can't see
It's just fear It's just dread It's just you in your head
It's just panic Just pain Just bleed Just Cain Just
SHUT UP!
I'm privately paralyzed by this personal panic
World falling down all around me while I just blow up volcanic
I'm still reveling in ridicule rage and the riot
Screaming out my lungs in this deafening quiet
Anger's your fuel, just shut up and use it
It's a hell of a drug see red and lose it!
A flurry of emotions swirls up inside my skull
I forget to breathe the drug makes me dull
I can't feel the pain, but the pain is what I need
Pain turns to anger, anger to hate, hate is the drive for the music I create
I hate what I am and I hate what I've been
The devil's on my shoulders with a picture perfect grin
You don't belong here
All I smell is fear
I'm covering my ears
And I'm prayin' I don't hear
I'm not outside I'm every single thought
Your own mind's a trap and we know you're caught
My thoughts are the villains welling up from inside
The Devil only magnifies my weakness and my pride!
You think you can beat me you little bitch?
You'll come crawling back once you feel the itch
I'll be strong this time, fight and never stop!
Once you feel withdrawal you'll lose faith and drop!
I'll claw my way outside and see the city sights
One foot then the next rinse repeat fight against
This narcotic apathy telling me to sleep
Saying there's no use, effort's weak and cheap
One step at a time, each one is a grind
Each one takes me forward and again in kind
And each step's harder, makes the last one easy
Does it ever get better? I guess that we'll see
As I walk, I know that Each season, cannot last
Know the night, has to end And the sun will come again
Temporary? That is pain What's eternal? Whatcha gain
Pretty flowers, grow from rain Church windows, have a stain
I will crawl, until I bleed I will fight, 'til I succeed
A job done right, ain't easy Only way they're stoppin' me
Is if I die, bleedin' out, Give my all, leave no doubt