cerise - i'm bad at dating Lyrics

So I was writing this song, then I thought about something
I had everything done, then I scrapped it
I thought about when I started writing
The first couple of songs
I was like "let me write about love, i know a lot about it"
Yeah, right
Truth is
I haven't got the first clue of what the f*ck
Love is
I never even felt it, I'm pretty sure
That's a lie
That's a f*cking lie

I spent two years
Dating my best friend
Thing is we weren't
Best friends
'Till they became my ex
We hated our guts the whole second year
The thought of cheating was always here
But for them it wasn't only a thought

I get it though
With the yelling and crying
I guess people with mental disorders shouldn't date people with mental disorders
Just a thought
What I was trying to say before getting sidetracked
Was that I wasn't gonna look for The One anymore

I know I said that last year
Then had a crush on a person with BPD
Can't help it
Try to be a casual bitch
Then I catch feelings
Can't help it
I'm bad at dating
But i swear i'm really loving