Patterns Video (MV)

I've been noticing patterns
Paying attention to my ups and downs
These highs and lows happen like habits
Convince myself no one will stick around
I'll make plans when I'm manic
Skip to the day and now I'm panicked
Feel so ashamed but can I bail on you
Convince myself I've got commitment issues
Don't want to put myself in a box
Label it and say I'm something I'm not
If I pay someone to hear all my thoughts
Will they help me figure out all these blocks
Are holding me I hopelessly surrender
I cant do this on my own
Sometimes the only thing that gets my out of my mind
Is remembering someday Ill die
(I'll die)
It's comforting to know nothing lasts
It doesn't do me any good to hold on to the past
So I let go