GHXSTWRAITH - DISSOCIATE Lyrics

I'm one with a god that you never knew
I do it different
But different ain't really nothing new
Talk shit, bad luck
You may never grow
I'm really changing
But hide it well you may never know
No second guessing how I do it
I'm just on my own
I feel indifferent
F*ck yo' feelings
Really f*ck yo' tone
Dissociated by the thought that I may never know
What is real?
What is fake?
I feel sedated
I'm rarely faded
I'm rather waiting
For the day that I can wake up
I can feel the hatred
I'm merely breaking
I take a second debating lately
On whether not I should live or just fade to black
I talk small but walk big
I never lack
You talk shit
Live past tense
You really wack
Talk back or talk lies
Your skull crack
I'm unpacking the lies
And I feel it changing the time
And I never knew how to find it
But now I'm ducking and dodging
I see what's causing the nonsense
I'm steady fighting the problems
I see the law is dishonest
I really hate I'm falling
I'm falling further
I'm rotting
I feel the change, like
Do you really want it?
Well take a second look
You better really want it
Cause if you don't then it's getting took
So understand that world don't work in your favor
Nobody will save you but you

I just really wanna take a second to say
F*ck all you
F*ck what you think
F*ck what you say
F*ck everything you stand for
There's nobody in this life but myself
You take all the emotions and stack on em' the shelf
Now I'm guilty too but at least I know I'm in hell
I understand that these things are part of the self

I don't really wanna see
I don't know no different
I rock with the c'est la vie
Hide behind the scenes
Maybe its up my genes
Maybe it isn't
But I remain a sinner
Till I see my dreams, like
For the one time tell me how you do it?
F*ck with me you never looking back way I do it
Way I do it, tongue tied how I do it
Only speaking truth
If you thinking different
Really I might lose it, like
I ain't new to it
Really I'm just fused to it
Tired of the bullshit
I will never lose to it
I'm alive but I'm dead
Really it is a tragedy
Falling in circles I'm used to it
Tell me is it easy
When you looking in the mirror
And you fear everything that you know
Break down in tears
Ain't felt nothing in years
I'd be lying if I said I'm gold