Nina Video (MV)

You're fortunate your mother calls to hear about your shitty life
A bad counterfeit of a darling daughter, sister, mommy, auntie, wife
There's no subject acceptable for a woman like you to talk about
You're too tall, so slink down the wall until you're so small, you disappear
And congratulate yourself on a very effective use of self-hate
You were never great- you're wrong
'Cuz greatness comes in waves, like nausea, or maybe everyone's born with it
Now that you feel small
Small enough to go and hide in your grey bedroom and be you
Because you have to
Because you have to

Be positive while you're puking rainbow on the kitchen floor
And cover it with napkins you stole from the dollar store
You meant to cause a scene, but this is not quite the colorful chaos you were imagining
Be collected and cool, there's still time to gather your shoes and escape
Hulking barefooted down the city streets, but avoid the police
Or be damned
If you speak up and tell them you need them
Or worse, to go and f*ck themselves
Or crawl over the chromatic puddles in your kitchen back to your grey bedroom and be you
Even if it's not what you wanna do
What you wanna do

Nina says it's ok to shave my head
She prays for women who do not know they're humans yet
She's the sun in the sky descending
She's the worker's sigh when the day is ending
She's a martyr draped on a stone table
She's ginger tea and peppermint
She hates, steals, lies, but never sins
She feeds me when she's able
She lends me all her favorite books
She's a martyr, publicly dangling from a hook
She's me when I'm unstable

Nina says it's ok the shave my head
She says
It's ok