Ælf - Ritual Harassment Lyrics

Lost in the torment, drowning in their lies
Caught in the fire, you could see it in my eyes
Thought that they could change me, thought I'd disappear
But I'm their holy spirit, I'm the face of their held fears
Turn pain into venom, dripping from my tongue
I'm their twisted idol, bowed down on their knees and sung
Lost in the torment, drowning in their lies
Caught in the fire, you could see it in my eyes
Thought that they could change me, thought I'd disappear
But I'm their holy spirit, I'm the face of their held fears
Welcome to their coven, their hideaway cult
They love to surround me, blame me, say it's my fault
I'm their sacrifice, a prophet fulfillment
I'm their chosen prey, in this grand church of torment
They see me as their God, kneeling for forgiveness
Committing all their sins, from closed doors of ignorance
They see me as a target, nowhere to run
But if I stay long enough, then I could make this fun
They wore their masks, hide behind their rites
Behind the fake smiles, was a kill for the night
Trapped in this nightmare, no peace I could find
Used what I had, gave them a piece of my mind
A piece of their mind, or a chunk of their being (built my own cult made sure they're dead)
I assembled the bits and saw what they were seeing
A vision of hatred and twisted jealousy (built my own cult made sure they're dead)
I didn't realize it then, I was their prophecy
My blood is pure
Welcome to my coven, my open-earth cult
The ones who surround me, love me, say it's their fault
They're my sacrifice, a prophet fulfilled
I'm their chosen one now their old ruler was killed
They see me as their God, thinking they'll be adored
But if I keep this up my heart and blood will turn pure
I see them as a target, they have nowhere to run
After I built my own cult, it was worth all the fun (fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun, fun)
You were the best thing and worst thing to happen to me
Believe me
Blinded from dishonesty
Can't be so hard on myself, I was only a kid
Love at first sight like a total ecplise
Felt like I was floating, up in the clouds
'till the storm came in and pushed me down
Could never understand how you became so cold
You became so cruel, had an empty soul
Enough of me crying, I've done my grieving
Took me months to realize what my friends were seeing
You said you loved me but did not respect me
And I won't tolerate that from nobody
But when I think of it now, it explains a lot
How you cheated on me and thought that I forgot
Or when you knew me at my lowest when I had no one
To be used against me when I said we were done
So torn when you put your hands against me
I was only sixteen with a teen romance dream
High school love to a college nightmare
Did whatever I could to get myself out of there
Did some mayjor f*ck-ups, I'll own to that
But the difference was that I knew in fact
So I tried to change, tried to be like your image
But never was that ever reciprocated
Or the full opposite when you copied all I did
To befriend me, it was all fabricated
I fell for a lie, fell for an illusion
Was too much in denial, drunk of delusion
You said you loved every part of me
'till we got in fights, insecurities
I'd love your all from start to finish
When you gained some weight
Or saw a blemish
But I had a part of me, wish I'd lose
Was your life's mission to make it all about you
Man, f*ck you
You could never be like me
Even with acne, still looking pretty
Funny how my skin got clearer from the moment I dumped you
The Universe was saying that you were the bad news
Wish I could talk about the thing you have with minors
But I'll spare it, maybe for the next record