Here I stand
At the foul line been fighting with my solitude
The loved ones is worried
It's not about you
I promise you
Hard not to feel swallowed up
It breaks your follow-through
Manifest destiny
They don't teach that shit in college
The real kind
The I don't feel fine
The mind numb
Anxiety, real time
Whatever he's lost they feel like he'll find it
And God forbid I try to rewind it
They'll say I'm taking steps backwards
That's tragic
My people by design seldom get to live their crises
They wear it like a stain
Shame covering up their psyche
Narrowing paths
You gotta think fast
And never be flaccid
Every week passing me by, is just another chance to reconcile
Past coming up like the bile
I spit everything I got up
That's word to me I fell before
Don't remember I got up
Where's heaven on earth?
On life's terms I really just can't rely
Busy looking for Shangri la
Holding too long
Fear of letting go
Not everything that goes around
Comes back around, you know
Pissing in the wind
I'm shooting blanks to fill it in
And teen angst is a bad roommate
If you 30 with a kid
We flirted early with the flattened earth theory
I'm on edge
A sixth sense for hurt people
They come to me
I'm seeing dead
We in service to inner child
Feel like a deadbeat, yo it's been a while
Refurbish your insides
You trying to walk that green mile
If I fall, between the tiles
Then so be it I'm leaving now
I'm tired of earth
These f*ckin people
And the tangle of their lives
A phoenix rises
But a eagle sees the meal before their eyes
And capitalizes
Word to Ivan, these days all I see is I
Aboard the flight
Caught between bored of life and born to fly
It's borderline narcissism
I'm strolling that thin line
All I think about is due time
No more thinking now it's do time
And paradise on earth is for fools
We pushing through now
Satisfied with love because that presence is everlasting
If you feel this
Thats a morsel from christ
I'm still fasting
Holding on too long
Fear of letting go
Not everything that goes around
Comes back around, you know