EMOTIONAL SURGERY Video (MV)

My hearts been replaced with a stone
Luckily I'm still alive, Lord I do atone
I committed sins I regret, it wasn't easy
Had to make a change so His Spirit wouldn't leave me
Fighting with myself, saying, self you're the villain
Damaging the world when I was supposed to do the healing
Sacrificing everything I had for a feeling
Sacrificing everything I had
I was tackling this thing called life
Pain was the only thing I ever understood
So much so, I hurt friends, I never should
Tears that I cried, I quickly buried in a grave
No one could've known, I just wanted to be saved
Saved from a life where I was sinking
Regrets ran high, man, what was I thinking
Suicide lies in my mind, but it's perjury
Heart is fully broken my emotions needed surgery
Emotions needed surgery, I'm close to comatose
These thoughts, yeah they murder me, provoke the holy ghost, yeah
Feeling like a cynic, I will never trust a soul
And no it's not a gimmick, yeah my heart is truly cold
I been working 7 days, got a headache, I'm annoyed
Surrounded by a storm, falling deep into the void
Deactivate the socials, yeah I'm silencing the noise
Deactivate the socials, yeah I'm silencing the noise, uh
Perfectly imperfect and it's only cause I'm human
Emotionally draining all my energy, consuming
All this negativity the media is moving
I'm spreading positivity, the music I'm producing
Saved from a life where I was sinking
Regrets ran high, man, what was I thinking
Suicide lies in my mind, but it's perjury
Heart is fully broken my emotions needed surgery