Laying in bed with my feet up, a little bit beat up
Unable to sleep
My bones are yelling at me, my body's not happy
But bodies are weak
I wash my work clothes in the sink
And I drink
Always pushing myself harder
'Cause I love to be a martyr
Cracking shoes and tearing pockets
Rather die than ever stop it
Rather die than most things
Chugging coffee and crashing, hysterically laughing
Not quite knowing why
Bored of people expressing their worries and blessings
The looks in their eyes
I come home just to lie about
And black out
Knowing suicide is a sin
But not dying of exhaustion
Make my tension into a crown
Rather die than ever slow down
Rather die than most things
Rather die than most things
If you throw yourself off a bridge
Everyone will call you selfish
If you work yourself to death
Everyone will be impressed