J/K! Video (MV)

Everyone is so proud they're so proud they're so proud of me
For my good health, for keeping myself above the waves
Everyone keeps saying they say they say, "We were certain
"Oh, shit, for sure, she's a goner, we'll see her grave"
I guess I worried some folks, I guess some folks were worried
Some folks, I guess, thought I was a mess who'd never behave

Well, if everyone was so sure was so damn sure I was going to swing
Why didn't anyone anyone anyone anyone do anything

Just kidding
My days of ungratefulness are certainly middling
Just kidding, just kidding, just kidding, I'm kidding

I'm very thankful you talked to each other and never to me
Confirming that things I was doing to myself were unhealthy
Never expressing concern I may be acting dangerously
I never felt isolated, I never felt lonely

It's no-one's fault, technically it's no-one else's fault I
Would not accept, would firmly reject anyone's help

But if everyone was so sure was so damn sure I was going to die
Why didn't anyone anyone anyone anyone try

Whatever
Everyone tells me I'm doing much better
Whatever! Whatever

The theory I'm hearing is I must be fine if I'm sometimes sober
Everyone sees a difference in my eyes and my composure
My decreased tolerance is a symptom of having found closure
I'm never f*cked up now, I'm never hungover

It's true that I'm it's true I'm it's true I'm not as bad as I was in the thick
Does that mean I'm not sick? Does it mean that I've grown
Certainly I'm certainly certainly I'm not like I was back at home
When I was alone, and I was alone

And if everyone was so sure was so damn sure I was in crosshairs
Why didn't anyone anyone anyone anyone care

Just kidding