medicine Video (MV)

I woke up still missing the summer
Not the one we spent each second wrapped up in each other
The one that I spent numb and running trying to discover
If I had run right out the door and right into another
Wall
Spending all the days and weeks waiting for you to call
Knowing I won't be the first one to drop the ball
Staring at the ceiling, barely breathe or sleep at all
Counting down the days until the fall
You left me way too slow
It's not my fault you can't just let me go
Think I'm addicted to the thrill of second chances
Apathetic understanding of a cycle I got handed
Can't find a reason to excuse a true unhanding
Wondering if I should plan it
You and I both left me stranded
I've got pills now that the doctor hesitated
Giving me but I need something to help stop the shaking
Cause lately you've been finding every way to complain
You're insane
And I hate how you're the reason for the medicine I'm taking
But I won't ever let you know about
All the little thoughts of mine that fill me up with doubt
They'll show up when you're refusing to open up your mouth
You're using me and I don't know how I'm gonna walk out
Looking back hits so sad
Thinking that I really needed you so bad
Shaking from you screaming saying you're so mad
I'm the f*cking worst and you're the best I'll ever have
You left me way too slow
It's not my fault you can't just let me go
Think I'm addicted to the thrill of second chances
Apathetic understanding of a cycle I got handed
Can't find a reason to excuse a true unhanding
Wondering if I should plan it
You and I both left me stranded
Left me way too slow
It's not my fault you can't just let me go