Spectrowhirl - Down Lower Under Dark Lyrics

And I understood that pain,
For I've felt it for years.
Denial every morning
Thinking "Maybe this time I'll get better,"
But it builds in arrears.

Diagnostics and bottles of
Chemical blankness,
Gobbling white plastic pills.
Soaking up every sensation and sting
For signs that the suffering is stilled.

But no, it's stuck,
Your skin is fused
To jagged surfaces where
Something's abused
You can't blink or breathe or shake it out
Or calm the waters with a gasp.

You're down
Low
Under
Darker now
Down
Low
Under
Darker every day
Down
Lower
Under
Darker
Down
Down
Down.

There are gaps in time where you might forget
And for a moment the bite isn't deep.
Then a second will pass and you remember that
You've only sunk in the murky steep

Maybe tomorrow--
But why would it?
Someday I'll find the cause.
Maybe it's fine, I can live with it now.
How can I live in a predator's jaws?

Diagnostics and bottles of
Chemical blankness,
Gobbling plastic pills.
Soaking up every sensation and sting
For signs it's distilled.

And now I'm stuck in the net
Of something sticky and vicious and wet
Time turns up the curse
And breathing burns worse
Till the hearse

And thrashing makes you weak
Shouting strains the squeak

I'm down
Lower
Under
Darker now
Down
Low
Under
Darker every day
Down
Lower
Under
Darker
Down
Down
Down.