Suisei - sidelines Lyrics

I've been on the sidelines rotting away
Been looking for a place anywhere i could stay
Been tryna make a move they aint fall into place
Now im wastin away, yea im wastin away

Sometimes i hate myself cuz i dont like the way i live
And all the time that ive been spending with my enemy
And it feels like im going insane
Too much shit on my mind, so little to say

I don't like to talk girl u should know that
No one by my side now and im hurt bad
Screaming in silence but no one heard that
You know its true, but thats not on you

Should i drift away, to the land of the dead and
Throw away, all the things that we had
Cuz i dont wanna live, but im too scared of dying
I don't wanna be here, but they told me keep trying
Should i give this another try
Will they give me another lie

I used to be so full of life but then i lost it
Living such a shitty life it's exhausting
Guess i'll just hope for better days, better days, better days