All day all night all day...
Oh
Am I cursed or am I blessed
Cause all I know I cheated death
I would've lost all of my friends if I'm alive
Wait are they dead
We all did the same bullshit
Save myself with shots like them
Oh yeah hold on
Demons chase me they won't end
I'm still sick up in the head
And they filling me with dread so alone can't trust no person
Nightmares when I rest my head
Sorry I left you on read
I'm just going through some shit
Don't want to make you worry so don't ask me
How I've f*cking been
I catch myself acting real depressed
It's a sickness I admit
I should be grateful that I'm still here
Left all the drugs
Ain't even had a beer
Please just hold me close and near
Whisper right into my ear
Tell me nothing I should fear
Everyone doubting me they just leer
I can't blame I did that shit for years
I have faith in myself
I done made it out of hell
Sometimes I feel like a shell
Life is slow just like a snail
I don't live life work too fast
I don't want to go back to that
Wasted all my money on this mag
I got the monkey off my back
I seem to isolate myself
I'm really working on that
I finally don't have to get will
I think about the past
I think about the past
But I can't cry
I can't believe I was that guy
Gave everything away
Just to get high
My therapist agrees
I'm traumatized
Trying to live life right
This time
Only way I can express myself
Is through all these rhymes
I wasted so much of my time
(Time)