Scenes In Winter by Moonlight Video (MV)

It's like all the stars have conspired
To get together and fall to the earth
It's like a new day you never need me
Perpetually lost inside this mind since birth
So meet me halfway or no just leave me
Conceded indeed you see this world isn't yours
But sometimes I know when I'm not needed
So I sit in the cut await a call just like hers
Most of the time I sit completely numb
Feel nothing at all
It's the only way I can get through all these days
Without taking a fall
I fall through paintings of Vincent Van Goh
Haunting with splashes of color
You see my heart just bleeds and bleeds it kind of smothers
Any oxygen that I uncover
There's not a cure
I'm barely making it
It seems I'm on
Borrowed time
And If I borrowed it
Who should I return it to
Not you
Surely there's a line
Your the cause
And I'm not faking this
Falsify
And I'm not taking this
I'm fed up with death
By a thousand cuts
I see a picturesque scene and wonder
Why that can't be us
Cause you're playing
I'm just saying
It's like the sun is conspiring against me
Burning me way before my time
I had to listen to you stretch and bend the truth
Making me question myself not so fine
Yea I'm swimming upstream against doubts and self hate
Trying really hard not to drown
Here's the twist I never really learned to swim
So I'm lost perpetually falling down
Habitually you consume and discard cause you don't know
Just how hurt I am
You see I make through most days by turning off my thoughts
My heart and I can barely stand
I stumble through paintings Francisco Goya
Cause inside I'm going through upheaval
You see my soul just bleeds and bleeds it kind of smothers
Any oxygen there is not a sequel
There's no encore
See I'm barely making it
It seems I'm on
Borrowed time
And if I borrowed it
Who should I return it to
Not you
Surely there's a line
Your the cause
And I'm not faking this
Falsify
And I'm not taking this
I'm fed up with death
By a thousand cuts
I see a picturesque scene and wonder
Why that can't be us
Cause you're playing
I'm just saying
I'm just saying
I'm just saying
I'm just saying
I make it through the days telling lies to myself but I'm running
So I don't really care
I don't need you and your words so hollow
It's like you're never really there
The shadow of despair passes through a gradient
From like to dark how it enters
And see we've been through Spring, Summer, and Fall
So what's next is the winter
So save your tears falling down your face
They freeze on your cheek as they fall
You see I'm way past hurt way past forgiveness
I can't understand this at all
I'm in the winter of my feelings I sit here on the precipice
Just waiting for them to thaw
But they're raw
And exposed to the elements
I wanna see
What you saw
I'm freezing I'm bleeding
I can't make up my mind
It's treason
To my soul
My heart betrays every time
There's a reason you don't feel me
The truth is glaring at you
It's because your damaged and broken inside
And see that fact I'm tryna get through
But save your tears falling down your face
They freeze on your cheek as they fall
You see I'm way past hurt way past forgiveness
I can't understand this at all
I'm in the winter of my feelings I sit here on the precipice
Just waiting for them to thaw
But there raw
And exposed to the elements
I wanna see
What you saw