Sonnet: IV Video (MV)

I really don't know what else to tell you
I was genuine the real not tryna sell you
You left me in the lurch and now I'm reeling
The consequences aren't your fault but that's the feeling
I'll admit my strength to cope is sorely lacking
If you'll admit you led me on there's no one asking
You have to search deep inside just to reveal it
I don't really think I can wait but I still feel it
You understand deep inside I have a soul
Being vulnerable not the time for you to go
Or maybe just perhaps I prefer to rip the gauze off
Instead of this long drawn out process that leaves loss
You have ghosted not free those actions have a cost
I don't blame you I blame myself it never stops
Call it weakness when tears are running down my face
No that's not weakness thats my emotions winning the race
Its hurting, its really hurting
The things that they told you, it was all a lie
Its hurting, its really hurting
The outcome of this you can't apologize
It might be permanent the issues are with trust
When love is so metallic it is subject prone to rust
The structure creaks and groans in the wind
I wish I could understand I wish I could begin
I wish I could begin
I wish I could begin
I wish I could begin
Look into my eyes
You made promises
You never intended to keep
It's that deep it really is
I thought I knew you
I thought
Just because you told me
But I'm a fool
So sorry
Yes I'm a fool
I really don't know what else I can convey
I was holding onto something embarrassed now to say
Love, but love isn't real I think I know
Wait it is Im only tryna think so I can cope
With the fact that I'm all alone I'm never chosen
Looking in the mirror is always my lowest moment
Its like I paint a picture with no color
Feels like I think of you and I suffer
I really don't care if you end up with me
I really just want you to be happy if you see
I really just want you to know how much your worth
Even if I can't see my own value and it hurts
I should talk it out I'm skeptic if it can be fixed
Abandonment has followed me around like a mist
Freezing and chilling me to the bone
But I somehow still emanate some warmth
Its hurting, its really hurting
The things that they told you, it was all a lie
Its hurting, its really hurting
The outcome of this you can't apologize
It might be permanent the issues are with trust
When love is so metallic it is subject prone to rust
The structure creaks and groans in the wind
I wish I could understand I wish I could begin
I wish I could begin
I wish I could begin
I wish I could begin
I wish I could begin
Hopeless
I am
Romantic
I bleed every word understand
You know this
Okay
Well why are you running
From me so far away
I'm hopeless
They say
But i don't really think
I am doomed to stay this way
Yes I do
Okay
My biggest fear dying alone
I'd rather burn than fade away
Hopeless
I am
Romantic
I bleed every word understand
You know this
Okay
Well why are you running
From me so far away
I'm hopeless
They say
But i don't really think
I am doomed to stay this way
Yes I do
Okay
My biggest fear dying alone
I'd rather burn than fade away
Hopeless
I am
Romantic
I bleed every word understand
You know this
Okay
Well why are you running
From me so far away
I'm hopeless
They say
But i don't really think
I am doomed to stay this way
Yes I do
Okay
My biggest fear dying alone
I'd rather burn than
Fade away