440morningstar - Thinking Back Lyrics

Thinking back to when I wasn't always lost
When I played out in the yard
Thinking I was such a boss, yeah
That was way back when
Never thinking 'bout my problems
Only what would be for dinner
Wasn't trying to fit in
Thinking back on it
Never really had much stress
Thinking back on it
Used to go to church and I felt blessed
Thinking back on it
I wasn't scared for my soul
Thinking back on it
Nah I wasn't worried 'bout my goals
All I really do is sit in my room
Got a fan on for noise
But the air's getting cold
Been feeling low and I don't know what to do
I been lost in a void
With no hope to behold
Used to want a f*cking wraith
But now I know that aint my place
Needing space
But now I realize that I been misplaced
What a shame, yeah
Cause I been feeling like an inmate
To this prison in my mind
I've been attending for some time
I won't change
I can't change
I'm gonna flip this script
No I'm not changing my lane
I'm gonna go the distance
I won't change, nah
I can't change, yeah
I'm gon fake it till I make it
No more pain yeah
But there's a problem when you start to mask away
All the pain that you been feeling
Everything just starts to drain
And then you feeling like you keeling
Wish I'd make it past the ceiling
But it's trapping me down under
And my head been caving in
When people talk it sounds like thunder
I been trying hard to cleanse myself
From all these burdens in my way
And to defend myself
But everytime I get away
I feel them pulling me
I feel like I cant leave cause certain people need me
Thats why I'm here cause they all make me think I need to be
And whenever I go to leave the house the little people notice me
I wish I had the old me
When I played out in the yard
Running through my momma's garden
When I didn't have no problems
Thinking back on it

Thinking back
Yeah yeah, thinking back on it
Just the other day
Just the other day
Thinking back on it
So I had to write this song
Write this song
Thinking back on it
Yeah yeah, aye