440morningstar - Toxic Relationship Lyrics

I wish I could know

This is the way, I feel
And I cannot help, that it's real
I wish I could let it all go
I wish I could know
But this is the way, you feel
And I cannot help, that it's real
So I'll make a wish
Cuz I can not deal with this toxic relationship

Remember when
Way back when
We were kids and we'd play pretend
When we'd laugh and we'd act like friends
We'd be up late you were holding my hand
Telling me that everything is a'okay
Telling me we're friends you're my day one, aye
Telling me you're happy, yeah you make my day
What I gotta say?
All I ever wanted was somebody to be there for me
Who would understand and care for me
And that's always what I had with you
I never asked of you
You did it anyway you walked my shoes
When I was feeling so blue
But you decided I was better off without you
When we talk you start yelling and then making it about you
Telling me to give up it's the end of the line
But please just don't leave, lemme give it some time

Yeah, this one's for you bitch
I swear to god I f*cking hate you sometimes

Last time we talked
You said that you missed me
I feel in your trap
While you comfort and kissed me
And all the while I'm scared of when next you will leave me
Cause I know it never lasts long
Thinking your arms are right where I belong
But sometimes your arms start to hold me too strong
And I can't escape long enough just to breathe
I want my own say won't you let me be me?
You treat me so good but then hit a 180
I misunderstood do you love or you hate me?
One day you say that I'm you friend
And the next day you say you're just wanting me to be dead
I'm trapped in your bind
You're one of a kind
But you always just push me around
And throw me on the ground
And I guess I been way too distracted or blind
Cause I can't get away from this toxic relationship
That is my mind
It's on the inside
It eats me alive
Sometimes I'd just rather be dead than to live with you
That's what you want tho I can't let you get to me
Doesn't make sense to me
I guess I just gotta try to let go
Gotta find a new home
But I don't know how I can begin to let go of you
Living it
Toxic relationships with my own head
Got me thinking bout ending it