Amanda Palmer - In My Mind Lyrics

in my mind
in a future 5 years from now
I'm 120 pounds
and I never get hungover
because I will be the picture of discipline
never minding what state I'm in
and I will be someone I admire

and it's funny how I imagined
that i would be that person now
but it does not seem to have happened
maybe I've just forgotten how to see
that I'm not exactly the person that I thought I'd be

and in my mind
in the far away here and now
I've become in control somehow
and I never lose my wallet
because I will be the picture of discipline
never f*cking up anything
and I'll be a good defensive driver

and it's funny how I imagined
that I would be that person now
but it does not seem to have happened
maybe I've just forgotten how
to see that I'll never be the person that I thought I'd be

and in my mind
when I'm old I am beautiful
planting tulips and vegetables
which I will mindfully watch over
not like me now
I'm so busy with everything
that I don't look at anything
but I'm sure I'll look when I am older

and it's funny how I imagined
that i could be that person now
but that's not what I want
if that's what I wanted
then I'd be giving up, somehow
how strange to see
that I don't want to be the person that I want to be

and in my mind
I imagine so many things
things that aren't really happening
and when they put me in the ground
I'll start pounding the lid
saying I havn't finished yet
I still have a tattoo to get
that says "I'm living in the moment"

and it's funny how I imagined
that I could win this winless fight
but maybe it isn't all that funny
that I've been fighting all my life
but maybe I have to think it's funny
if i wanna live before I die
maybe it's funniest of all
to think I'll die before I actually see
that I am exactly the person that I want to be

f*ck yes
I am exactly the person that I want to be

[Thanks to no_leaf_clover95 for adding these lyrics]