Animosity - You Can't Win Lyrics

I never wanted to fall from the top of the world but here I am.
And now I am tired and f*cking ugly and I hate it but it's all I can be.
Locked up, f*cked up but I know I'm not the only one.
I hear that life goes on, but I guess just not for everyone.
Consumed by bliss that now all I do is miss.
The memories can make me happy but now I'm f*cking pissed!
Hopeless.
Irrationally searching every single dimension to find a way to bring me closer to you.
It's night like these when my jaw is being pried off the sides of my face and it feels as if somehow I swallowed a f*cking shoe.
I want to tear out my throat so just for a minute I might be able to finally breathe.
What has happened to me?
Not a day goes by when I didn't wish I were still living in September 2005.
I never wanted to live this way or to feel this pain.
And I can't stop asking why.
Now I see that life is just a game.
Sometimes everyday with out you, is another day I wish I didn't have to go through.
It still hits me like a brick everyday and it will never go away.
I never wanted you to go away.
I hang my head deep into my chest, tormented to realize that for now this is the best.
I want my life back, I want your life back more than anything.
I never wanted to fall from the top of the world but here I am, and to some degree I always feel like shit because your...Gone, forever.
Gone, taken from me.
Gone, f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck.
I used to think depression had nothing to do with me.
Now every day of my life I'm faced with despair and misery.
Because some dumb f*cking asshole made some bad choices, and he landed on you, and we all pay the price...Now I know the meaning of being alone.