Aakash - If I Don't Laugh, I'll Cry Lyrics

I keep a little distance, call it self-protection
Don't want you to see my scars
I could give a million reasons but I'll keep them
So I can glue the broken parts
And now we're grown up, messed up
Thinking bout a life that is not just tough love
What if we survive all the madness, chaos
But it's just too late and there's no us
If I don't laugh, I'll cry
What if the best days have already passed by
A hard truth but I'm stuck in denial
We both know its easier to say I'm fine, cause
If I don't laugh, I'll cry
What if the wings on my back weren't made to fly
Every time I jump part of me dies
On stage performing the storyline
But I don't wanna
Band-aids never did it for me
Cause I can see the blood seep through
Cause you never let a wound heal, beat me back down
So I just end up black and blue
And now we're grown up, messed up
Thinking bout a life that is not just tough love
What if we survive all the madness, chaos
But it's just too late and there's no us
If I don't laugh, I'll cry
What if the best days have already passed by
A hard truth but I'm stuck in denial
We both know its easier to say I'm fine, cause
If I don't laugh, I'll cry
What if the wings on my back weren't made to fly
Every time I jump part of me dies
On stage performing the storyline
But I don't wanna
Just don't get to close to me I'm scared that you will see
The way that I see me, the way that I see me
Just don't get to close to me I'm scared that you will see
The way that I see me, the way that I see me
If I don't laugh, I'll cry
What if the best days have already passed by
A hard truth but I'm stuck in denial
We both know its easier to say I'm fine, cause
If I don't laugh, I'll cry
What if the wings on my back weren't made to fly
Every time I jump part of me dies
On stage performing the storyline
But I don't wanna
Cry no more, cry no more
Cry no more, cry no more, cry no more
Cry no more, cry no more
Cry no more, cry no more, cry no more
If I don't laugh, I'll cry