At Some Point, My Life Will Cause Me to Break! Video (MV)

My brain is always thinking but my thoughts don't make sense
You don't have clue of what's going through my head
Better leave me alone if I get nervous
I need to be fixed so for now I'm out of service
All this damage more than I can take
At some point my life will cause me to break
I cannot keep living this way
Something just does not feel okay
I feel like I lost my touch with reality
If I kill myself I bet no one will remember me
Swimming in my tears I ran out of them so I can't cry
Heart is going numb I'm already dead I don't feel alive

So that means I cannot kill myself
My thoughts are confusing I don't make sense
Whenever I try to tell
Somebody about the way that I feel
It just eats me alive how
Everything is against me I
Hope that you see it from my perspective
Just so you can feel all the pain that I have dealt with
I hope that you live long enough through your suffering
I will never feel the same way 'cause of what you did
Thinking about all the situations I was helpless in
It cripples me to death can't get rid of all this helplessness

I don't feel alive
I'm already dead