Suicidal
Ideation
Self defeating
Thought intrusions
Pessimistic
Ruminations
A product
Of isolation
Mentally blunted
Confined stunted
Walking on a tightrope
Trying not to fall
Cant balance all the pressure
Maybe Ill end it all
Locked up / Surrounded by death
Locked up / Losing my head
Locked up / Always exhausted
Locked up / Agoraphobic
Funeral after funeral
Replay on a loop
Loss on loss compounded
No way to recoup
Losing all my sanity
Questioning the why
Writing my own elegy
Am I the next to die?"