Amber Energy Video (MV)

From depressing days as a teen
To being being independent
Thinking life would be a movie scene

Steady replacing meals with smoke
Nothing in the fridge
Beer, baking soda or a Diet Coke

Lost in the shadows of identity
As I waste my life folding cargo jeans
Been going too long, think I'm losing it
Delusions creep in, I go and take another hit

Double digit days, can't stop till the clock does
Redbull and nic, I think I caught a buzz
In this haze of exhaustion, I lost it
Working for a better life, look how much it's costin'

Addiction and anxiety
Guess the rotten apple doesn't fall far from the tree
I'm an overachiever, a leader
Bring me home to mom
Bet she'll tell you I'm a keeper

Breadwinner at 19, think about it
Swimmin' in the pond
Just me, and it's still crowded
You see a door, I probably got the key
Let you in through the back, don't let the cameras see

Lost in the shadows of identity
As I waste my life folding cargo jeans
Been going too long, think I'm losing it
Delusions creep in, I go and take another hit

Double digit days, can't stop till the clock does
Redbull and nic, I think I caught a buzz
In this haze of exhaustion, I lost it
Working for a better life, look how much it's costin'

Lost in the shadows of identity
As I waste my life folding cargo jeans
Been going too long, think I'm losing it
Delusions creep in, I go and take another hit

Double digit days, can't stop till the clock does
Redbull and nic, I think I caught a buzz
In this haze of exhaustion, I lost it
Working for a better life, look how much it's costin'

And as I get myself up each day
Driving for miles, watching rising rays
Keys on my hip, and a smile on my face
Hopin' nobody f*cks with me today

And as I kill my mind and body to get this money quicker
I look at the bigger
Picture am I, able to carry all the weight
As my hair falls out, and my skin goes from tan to gray

Lost in the shadows of identity
As I waste my life folding cargo jeans
Been going too long, think I'm losing it
Delusions creep in, I go and take another hit

Double digit days, can't stop till the clock does
Redbull and nic, I think I caught a buzz
In this haze of exhaustion, I lost it
Working for a better life, look how much it's costin'

Service industry with bigger dreams
Not the first or last
Artist, dropout, wannabe
Pursue this shit for passion
Lord keep me balanced
Don't let me listen
To pride or ego, it's a challenge

As I omit some shit
That the cameras definitely didn't miss
Should have just kept that shit in my pants
Nothing within these walls was ever built to last

Lost in the shadows of identity
As I waste my life folding cargo jeans
Been going too long, think I'm losing it
Delusions creep in, I go and take another hit

Double digit days, can't stop till the clock does
Redbull and nic, I think I caught a buzz
In this haze of exhaustion, I lost it
Working for a better life, look how much it's costin'

Lost in the shadows of identity
As I waste my life folding cargo jeans
Been going too long, think I'm losing it
Delusions creep in, I go and take another hit

Double digit days, can't stop till the clock does
Redbull and nic, I think I caught a buzz
In this haze of exhaustion, i lost it
Working for a better life, look how much it's costin'