Habitual Video (MV)

I wish that I could tell you how
I only wanna heal to make you proud
I f*ck up simple sentences
Spilling "sorry" on the carpet
And hot water never gets it out
It's hardest when I'm alone
But I'm used to it, so it feels like home
Play it cool when I'm in front of you
But every night it's something new
And bad habits, they'll eat me whole

And they've got me consuming blood
Ice water and chewing gum
But it's all okay, I feel young
I'm thinner than I ever was

Hey, oh, I'm falling
Oh, I'm cold
Hey, oh, I'm calling
It's habitual
Hey, oh, I'm falling, oh

I wish that I could sober up
Got me thinking that I'm not enough
Every night I'm missing you
But I can't breathe fire without the fuel
And bad habits, they'll rip me up
The devil is right on time
I'm used to her, I'm feeling fine
Yeah she's a killer queen
Murder in my magazines
Don't stop me till you see my spine

And they've got me consuming Vogue
Iced out, chewed up, bit my soul
But my body thinks you let me go
I like it when you're in control

Hey, oh, I'm falling
Oh, i'm cold
Hey, oh, i'm calling
It's habitual
Ah, no, I'm falling, no