Not Even Close To It, Like Not At All Video (MV)

Hashem knows I've been on for a minute
But I feel like I'm slipping through the cracks
Like an outta town chic 26 years old not hitched and still living at home with her parents in the sticks
She just wanna meet a mensch get married have kids licht bench
Think about what shabbos cereal she gets for em
Growing up her mama got Trix
Now she all grown up feeling like she got tricked
How is this gods plan
Lights going off in the beis
I don't even flinch
Al' I'm falling down the rabbit hole again
Thinking over every single sin I ever did
Every time I was hocking about my friends going off
Trust me I was just blowing off steam
How I treated my mom at 15 through 18 then TJ
I'm getting goosebumps like I'm reading at a 5th grade level
Lotta JAPs never get to meet their prince
If they miss the boat now they goin have to stay a miss for the rest of their
Life moves fast didn't need Matt Broderick to fill a bochur in

Fat chance when she got a double
I'm taking cheap shots like Cofix
Shaddy been ghosting so now I'm on loop like a hit song
Watch how she getting ticked off now
I maybe outreach NCSY
Hair slicked back like an SY
West side now blue polo in shul like Best Buy
Late nights you don't wanna hear about the rest
That I didn't even get

Hashem knows I've been on for a minute
But I feel like I'm slipping through the cracks
Not long ago a bochur in crack
To Shmacked missing curfew night bus back for I black out
Gotta thank brass how he got me outta that
Blow my budget for the week on an iv and bed
Shaddy blue checking me ain't no way I'm getting redt now
DOA somebody get the check now think I'm checked out

Hashem knows I've been on for a minute
But ain't even finished
Not even close to it