i don't understand! Video (MV)

Nobody listens till you fall off the edge I gave my all and nothing more nothing less
Drove my car up to the rooftop Told myself that this is it
Heaving breathing beating won't stop
One step can I manage this
I don't know where I'll be going I just know that it will end

Rather this than always knowing that I won't feel at peace again
I won't feel at peace again
I won't feel at peace again
I need help I'm about to make a bad decision
Livin in hell on earth it's just not worth it

Show me how to set it free or take the life away from me
I feel ashamed of everything that I've done
It's looking cloudy even under the sun
Took one piece but broke it all off
And watched the whole thing fall apart
Should have would have yet I did not I played what's dealt but lost the cards

I don't know where I'll be going I just know that it will end
Rather this than always knowing that I won't feel at peace again
I won't feel at peace again
I won't feel at peace again

I need help I'm about to make a bad decision livin in a hell on earth it's just not worth it
Show me how to set it free or take the life away from me
I wanna take flight I wanna feel that wind on my face
I wanna feel okay I wanna take flight I wanna take flight

I need help I'm about to make a bad decision livin in a hell on earth it's just not worth it
Show me how to set it free or take the life away from me