Unacceptable II Video (MV)

Life wasn't so easy
When you never had a chance
It wasn't so simple
When you didn't have any plans
Finding out the people in your life
Who would purposely hurt you
Would give you the opportunity for you to realize
They didn't deserve you
But as I grew up
I took an arrow to the knee
And I found a place where I could open my eyes
And finally see
It's a whole different me
Who am I supposed to be
When the people in my life who I thought I loved
Turned their back on me
I'm still dwelling on it
I thought it would be over
Until I opened a new chapter of my life
And finally became sober
It's a mind opening experience
To get off the drug that's love
I swear I didn't have time for you
But you pushed and you shoved
And you begged and pleaded
Told me that we could work
But in the end it was only me
The one who's always hurt
To finally turn my back on someone
Who needed me most
It's why I've never been proud of myself
I have no reason to boast
So I try to hide the pain
So I can look like a man
When in all honesty
I'm just doing the best that I can
For some people that's easier than others
Not even a scratch
But it's the gashes that collapses
The man who says that he can't
So he just cries
And it finally builds up
Until it overflows and once again blows up
But this time it was worse
Mental illness came to stay
The only hint I can give is that I'm shaking
That's all I can say
This is a one take
Everything on my mind
I'm trying to write these stanzas in hopes
That I'm not one of a kind
It's awful of me
To try to relate to all these kids
When they don't understand what life truly is
Or do they
They've been exposed
To all the hurt and all the pain
No doors closed
People have it worse than them
But they don't understand
They're feeling the same pain
But on another level, it goes hand in hand
I sit in my warm house and try to be thankful
But if I'm too depressed to eat
I'm suddenly ungrateful
I hope someone can relate
To what I'm reciting to you
I hope to God that you feel all of this emotion too
So let's say this together
I'm not one of a kind
There are a million people
Who have the same problems as mine
So let's bring the positivity even in the worst
So that our emotions don't build up and
Suddenly burst
This is my only chance, to prove I'm worth something
If I don't, then I'll become the demon inside me
Listen to these words that, come out of my mouth
I want you to realize that I'm not half of what comes out
Everything's satirical and nothing's the truth
But now I've finally come out
And said it in the booth
Unacceptable didn't even explain half my thoughts
What's unacceptable is that
I just wanna sit my grave while it rots