i tried Video (MV)

I tried
A thousand times
To read your mind
Can't decide
Sacrifice
Give my life
Just let it take time
Just let it take time
I could never live with you
I don't wanna die alone
Almost had a kid with you
I knew that the time was wrong
Maybe if I get a blessing in the future
By the the time it happens
I might look at you and see medusa
Had to send you packing oh
Always play the blame game
Victim and abuser
Listen to the same thing
Tell me who the shooter
When I'm taking all the hits
But I'm so afraid to lose her
I might end up on a wanted list
Sitting in a cruiser
You driving me crazy
Crash test dummy
I ain't worried bout my safety
How I'm unlucky
You told me I could trust you
Looking like a puppy
With your big brown eyes
Should have knew
I saw it coming
Commit a homicide before I did you wrong
Sipping on that high proof
Smoking that strong
But I been on the grind
You know how I go off
Now it's do or die so
I tried
A thousand times
To read your mind
Can't decide
Sacrifice
Give my life
Just let it take time
Just let it take time
My biggest issue was you love me too much
Never made me wear a glove when we touch
Want a baby why you in such a rush
Trying to blame me when we argue and such
That I ain't want to grow up
Want to tell you that my plan to blow up
Wasn't part of your future
I see it's choking you up
Thinking maybe I don't love you enough
Then I joke about a stroller and bluff
Playing cards with you
While we picking baby names
Still strong but I wish it could have stayed the same
Movie marathon laying on lazy on a day
Trying to keep you calm while we playing games
Cooking up spaghetti with the bolognese
Lifting up this weight I see my shoulder gains
Need myself a bag
I was working with scraps
I would still find my hustle
I was just breaking my back
I would pull every muscle and
You know that's it's a fact
Making sure my money double
Just forget about my past
I tried
A thousand times
To read your mind
Can't decide
Sacrifice
Give my life
Just let it take time
Just let it take time