It's all about to change
I gotta start saving up a little bit of change
And I really gotta change
Who I am as a man
I gotta stop winging it and come up with a plan
I gotta give it all I got and stop saying that I can't
'Cause I know I really can
And I know I give a damn
I really gotta stop
Saying that I don't
I gotta stop saying yes
Stand up and say nope who cares if I rock the boat
Gotta spread a little hope
Gotta really pay attention maybe take some more notes
It might get a little hectic eh but thats okay
I might be shaking in my boots but I push through anyway
I really gotta stop caring what people say
I gotta take care of my business no matter what's in my way
Grind so hard that I look like I'm gettin paid
I gotta think before I speak
My responses be delayed
And my insecurities be like a tooth that's decayed
You really couldn't tell just by looking at me
But deep down inside all this pain is feeling nasty
Hurting pretty badly
So I bring it to the light
Now it's time to get it right
Time to get back in the fight
I been punched a couple times maybe more like a few
Now I'm sitting with this cup and my head down in a pew
And I'm talking to my father like God I love you
But I really need some grace and I'm needing you to move
'Cause I feel like imma quit on myself and on you
Help me in my marriage
Speaking of my marriage we gotta buy a lil carriage
Got a little one coming im thinking bout it now
Man my heart get to thumpin
I'm worried bout stumbling
Man I feel like I'm crumbling
What do I do?
I'm flipping through yo word but I don't see a clue
But heres what it is and here is what it ain't
Sometimes I'm on high
Sometimes I'm on a low
Sometimes I wanna praise you
Other times I really don't
Aye It's not that I don't it's more like I forget I sometimes I be putting you in the back of my head
Sometimes I make mistakes and I know I made my bed
But I don't wanna lay in it
I don't like my situation
So why do I be staying in it ?
I don't have it figured out and I got a lotta doubts
I been lost a few times
Wondered off of my route
I don't have all the facts but there's one thing that I know
My God is on throne and no matter how I feel I know I'll never be alone and this world is not my home
Grateful for my trials and all the hard seasons
I'll never stop believing not for any reason