Sorry if I had to leave
Couldn't keep it anymore
Pretended I had changed the ways
Fooling me had taken its toll
I thought it'd passed
I thought I had grown
But it made its way right back to me
Balling it a bluff
But I had always known
Maybe this ain't right for me
Fell right through
Lying to myself I found
There's no escape
I'd sink
Into myself again
Sorry if I made you leave
Couldn't take your raining words
Maybe I deserved it all
Losing wrong am I really free
I thought it'd passed
I thought I had grown
But it made its way right back to me
Calling it a bluff
But I had always known
Maybe this ain't right for me
Fell right through
Lying to myself I found
There's no escape
I'd sink
Into myself again
Yeah it was me
I'm not lying
I knew it'd be me
All these years complaining patching my cracks
I knew it was failing
Faking
Maybe I just wasn't aware or maybe I was too blind to see
That this was
And the most that it could ever be
Now I'm here finally living in my own skin
At peace
I fought to dilute the very essence of my being
For you and for a very oblivious me
I'm sorry if you weren't healing
I'm sorry it had to be this way
But what life would it lead us if I made you stay
And I never let myself go
Fell right through
Lying to myself I found
There's no escape
I'd sink
Into myself again