Live for Today Video (MV)

Maybe this is not as complicated as it seems
Maybe I just need some time alone
Wish I could take a breath and just put everything on hold
What if that was necessary?

There were times I tried to run away from it all
Escape to me just naturally seemed wise
The doubt that all my friends would be there for me when I fall
Just counting down the days to my demise

They told me, "Don't just leave yourself behind
You can't give up, you're not the kind to just
Throw it all away
Live for today"

I can't remember anything from the past years of my life
The emptiness just took my mind away
I can't laugh or cry or feel a goddamn thing, I know, I've tried
I'm getting there but I don't know why (I'm losing my mind)

I say all I do is right
I'm brave, I'm strong, I'm kind, despite
The ugliness I see inside
Emotionally blind
Why can't I?

Just breathe before you lose your mind
Somehow, somewhere you'll find
I can't stop

Just breathe before you lose your mind
Somehow, somewhere, someday you'll find
When you build your peace inside
Your dreams will come alive

(Empty, bitter, ugly) Though I don't want to be
(Broken despite my peace) False tranquility
(Don't you dare come find me) Don't you dare tell me
(To open my blind eyes and) Find what I cannot see

I want to be more
I want to be more (than I can be)
I want to be more
I want to be more than free

But I can't stop
I can't stop
Why can't I?
Why can't I?