Only felt their presence once
I haven't slept in like two months
Limestone settled in with dust
It never mattered who I was
Every moment melts to dusk
The ground's cold right to the touch
The kind of quiet that you've always feared so much
So you fill the room with sound
Don't keep me in the dark
Light bends around the trees and through the yard
Ice too dense to break the pond
Calling out to no response
Only felt their presence once
Haven't slept in like two months
Limestone settled in with dust
It never mattered who I was
Every moment melts to dusk
The ground's cold right to the touch
The kind of quiet that you've always feared so much
So you fill the room with sound
Don't keep me in the dark
Light bends around the trees and through the yard
Ice too dense to break the pond
Calling out to no response
Got Promethazine in my cup
Menthol cigarettes and my blunt
I'm dying, I feel sick
Run it up and I get stuck
Thighs all covered in cuts
Spill my f*cking guts
Already told you once
The heart just want what it wants
The heart just want what it wants, yeah
The heart just want what it wants
It's harder to do it
I'm just going through it
I'm just so confused
Express it in music
I trust in myself
I'm scarred with contusions
Believe the delusions
I've outlived my use, ugh
So damn tiring
So damn like me
That's why they don't like me
The shadows that hide in my walls
They look just like me
So damn frightening
Succumb to the pressure and give up my voice
Trapped here alone and I don't have a choice
Assign all my value to creative outlets
Don't get what I want then put it in doubt
Then try it again to the same result
It weighs on my passion
My outlook get dull
Try to make shit that pull on the heartstrings
Looking around and why are they laughing?
I gave you my soul
And made it the truest
Don't mean when they say
That they want real music
It's hardly enough
But I'm still going to do it
That's why I don't listen to pussies and losers
Knees covered in bruises
Waste time with excuses
I stay unamused
And make my improvements
To meet my own standard
We f*cking on camera
Never had shit
So f*ck your handout
Got Promethazine in my cup
Menthol cigarettes and my blunt
I'm dying, I feel sick
Run it up and I get stuck
Thighs all covered in cuts
Spill my f*cking guts
Already told you once
The heart just want what it wants