Asxrlai - Struggles Lyrics

What are you thinking
You say you love music
But what do you want
What do you really want

Maybe I wanna change the world
But its stubborn
Can not change depression
By pressing a button
Let me tell you something
That I can do
All these tracks I ran through
If you're seeing what I could be
Thank you
I dream about rhyming yeah
But this a mountain I'm climbing
With the sound I'm designing
Barely off the ground
But I found that I'm flying
Everybody love it when it sounds good
Yeah so I'm crafting every syllable
How I'm stressing bout the future
Feeling pitiful
All this self expression
Got me coming off as cynical
Yeah
But pride never gonna pay the bills
The time I devote to honing skills
Why when the loneliness can kill
Do I find myself alone
Writing patterns for the thrill
And this the shit that keep me up
Sniffing out the answers
When I'm reeking of the bud
Think I'd go insane
Without the people that I trust
Tryna find a reason
Isn't feeling it enough
I'm seeing rappers
And they boasting all their earnings
Look into their soul
Find the passion and the yearning
I love the world
But that won't keep it turning
Got me feeling less
From these lessons I'm learning
I wouldn't join in their games
Just to get plays
I don't care about the stats
Got my head straight
I ain't tryna do this
Just to get paid
But my soul don't mean squat
When it's rent day
But ain't nobody wanna hear
About the struggles
Peak behind the curtain
And I'm certain that it's muddled
I'm putting everything I got
Into taking any shot
But I'm never gon be something
That I'm not
I need support in what I do
But I don't make this for you
I gotta maintain sane
When the payment is due
And fading the view
Amazing that display of the truth
New shit hit the fans
Let it rain in the booth
I bet yall are wishing I would stick
To the sick shit
Discussing all my issues fix it
Quick dismiss it
Stick to the twisted limit
I just hope they
Let me visit acceptance
Let me visit acceptance
Yeah