Lucid Dreams Album Lyrics by BoyWithUke

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Migraine

I'm not a psycho, but I might go crazy
Writing typos, they ask, "Why so shaky?"
Missing my coat, all this pressure hitting my head
I'm on a tightrope, can't hit the high notes
Baby, I need Ibuprofen
I know that you'll take me back home
Don't leave me alone, I need a friend

I don't care what you think of me
I just want to be on top
I'm not stressed that you've never heard of me
You'll be listening non-stop

Hop off the highway
I've been having migraines
I've been waiting for a while to have it my way
Oof, just a boy acting like a goof
I've got fifty-five voices saying
I gotta do what they all say
Got me looking sideways
I don't wanna write a song about a heartbreak
Oof, just a boy acting like a fool
Got a hundred things I'd rather do

I don't like when they try controlling me
The thoughts I fight, they can get a little frightening
But I don't mind, if it means I get to be free
I speak my mind loud when I wanna be up all night
I can tell, they're getting sick of me
But I don't mind, If it means I get to be me

I don't care what you think of me
I just want to be on top
I'm not stressed that you've never heard of me
You'll be listening non-stop

Hop off the highway
I've been having migraines
I've been waiting for a while to have it my way
Oof, just a boy acting like a goof
I've got fifty-five voices saying
I gotta do what they all say
Got me looking sideways
I don't wanna write a song about a heartbreak
Oof, just a boy acting like a fool
Got a hundred things I'd rather do

I just wanna run around, but what do I know?
Like I said before, I'm missing all these high notes
I just wanna
Live a little before I go
I don't wanna lie low
Yeah, I know the subliminal
Messages they're sending me on how to leave a legacy
It's harder when you're farther and they're never letting constantly
And speaking over what you see
It's like they're coming after me
Can someone teach me how to breathe?
Tell me what I need

I don't care what you think of me
I just want to be on top
I'm not stressed that you've never heard of me
You'll be listening non-stop

Hop off the highway
I've been having migraines
I've been waiting for a while to have it my way
Oof, just a boy acting like a goof
I've got fifty-five voices saying
I gotta do what they all say
Got me looking sideways
I don't wanna write a song about a heartbreak
Oof, just a boy acting like a fool
Got a hundred things I'd rather do

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Problematic

Her laughter's for another
Her motions are disguised
Her makeup doesn't cover
What I see behind her eyes
Yes, I know that nothing's wrong
But what's the harm in asking, "Why?"
I know that you're not tired
Where the f*ck were you tonight?

Baby, let me be
Take my noose and set me free
Light my home on fire
Take me higher than I wanna be
Baby, on my knees
Beggin' for the sweet release
Let me hear the choir full of liars
Tell 'em I want peace

I wish I wasn't problematic
I'm semi-automatic
I'm trying not to panic, panic
I'm burning bridges into ashes
Light them up like matches
How could you understand it, stand it?

This morning she skipped breakfast
Said, she was running late
Her actions turning reckless
She began making mistakes
Then, I noticed something awful
'Bout her cadence yesterday
She didn't even notice
That she called me by his name

Baby, let me be
Take my noose and set me free
Light my home on fire
Take me higher than I wanna be
Baby, on my knees
Beggin' for the sweet release
Let me hear the choir full of liars
Tell 'em I want peace

I wish I wasn't problematic
I'm semi-automatic
I'm trying not to panic, panic
I'm burning bridges into ashes
Light them up like matches
How could you understand it, stand it?
I wish I wasn't problematic
I'm semi-automatic
I'm trying not to panic, panic
I'm burning bridges into ashes
Light them up like matches
How could you understand it, stand it

Why did you love me so?
Watch me as I let you go
Told you that I'm better off alone
Without you in my home
I let you in my heart
Let you back into my arms
Fool for thinking we could make it
Faking every single part
I thought that maybe you could be
The final f*cking remedy
The one to pull me out
If I were ever stuck inside a dream
I'm looking back at times we had
The things we did and things we can't
How could you stab me in the back?
I thought you were better than that

I wish I wasn't problematic
I'm semi-automatic
I'm trying not to panic, panic
I'm burning bridges into ashes
Light them up like matches
How could you understand it, stand it?
I wish I wasn't problematic
I'm semi-automatic
I'm trying not to panic, panic
I'm burning bridges into ashes
Light them up like matches
How could you understand it, stand it?

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Bad Blood

(La-la-la-la)
(La-la-la-la)
(La-la-la-la)

F*ck sick, apathy
You're way too good for me
You're better off all by yourself (you better off all by yourself)
Dark, cold, losin' sleep
You're way too cool for me
You're probably with somebody else

It's bad, bad blood
Livin' on in my veins
I don't know how I've changed, I don't
But that's bad blood
Drinkin' up on my pain
Whenever I hear your name, oh you're
Bad, bad blood (la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la)
Bad, bad blood

Was I enough for you?
Doin' everything I was told to do
You never, ever seem to call (back, babe)
Am I not good for you?
'Cause I cried for help, and you still refused
You know you could've had it all

It's bad, bad blood
Livin' on in my veins
I don't know how I've changed, I don't
But that's bad blood
Drinkin' up on my pain
Whenever I hear your name, oh you're
Bad, bad blood (la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la)
Bad, bad blood (la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la)

What would it be?
Don't play with me (la-la-la, la-la-la-la)
A-B-O-B
Bitch, I don't bleed (bitch, I don't bleed)
Bitch, I don't bleed (la-la-la, la-la-la)
Girl, take a seat
Don't make a scene
Bitch, that might be, just what you need (just what you need)
Is that what you need?

It's bad, bad blood
Livin' on in my veins
I don't know how I've changed, I don't
But that's bad blood
Drinkin' up on my pain
Whenever I hear your name, oh you're
Bad, bad blood (la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la)
Bad, bad blood (la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la, la-la-la-la)

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Babydoll

You got them purple socks, with the llamas on
I must have missed your call
And the drama all up in-between the walls
Of Nirvana, wanna make it all my fault
Make a scene

Babydoll, watch me fall
Oh, we could've had it all
Take me down, watch me drown
Clean the writing on the wall
Let the rain hit my face
I've been callin' out your name
Pull the trigger, run away
Run away, run away

No, I don't think we should hang out
I get confused when you're around
It's crazy as hell to say, I know
But I think it's time to let you go

I think it's time to let you go
I think it's time to let you go

Baby, you're making the day go by
So slow I may be mistaken
Waiting for moves to be made
Despite these walls I need to be patient
Lately it seems to be late for everything
I wish I could fake it
You say I'm hard to be there for
But your heart was always so vacant

Babydoll, watch me fall
Oh, we could've had it all
Take me down, watch me drown
Clean the writing on the wall
Let the rain hit my face
I've been calling out your name
Pull the trigger, run away
Run away, run away

No, I don't think we should hang out
I get confused when you're around
It's crazy as hell to say, I know
But I think it's time to let you go

If only I met you in my dreams
If only I was still asleep
We showed up at ten and left at night
'Cause you're the right one, at the wrong time

I think it's time to let you go
I think it's time to let you go

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Rockstar

I just wanna be an all-star
Run five hundred yards
Rockstar life, buying luxury cars
I want a Bentley, want a nice Porsche
I want a whip with butterfly doors
Grammy and a billion views
Enough money to afford nice shoes
Girlfriends and a golden goose and a golden tooth, man, what about you?

I just wanna go back to my room
I don't want the fame, I just want you

I wish I was famous, nobody knows me
I do the same shit, do what they tell me
I had dreams that I'm livin' in the hills
I'm chillin' with my homie Rick Ross, payin' bills
They call me faceless, I need a facelift
Radio stations hate on my playlist
One day, I'ma shoot a shot at Mars
Fall into its orbit, let me fall into your arms

I just wanna go back to my room
I don't want the fame, I just want you
I just wanna go back to my room, my room
I don't want the fame, I just want you, want you

And I've tried doin' all that I can
I'll walk to Japan
If it means that I won't fall
Off, bite my own tongue just to say
For the numbers I made
I feed it like an animal
Popped off, full of all this love (I don't wanna)
Girl, go, though it won't take much (I don't wanna)
Change clothes since we're so damn close (I just wanna)
Go home, baby, f*ck this show

I just wanna go back to my room, my room
I don't want the fame, I just want you, want you
I just wanna go back to my room, my room
I don't want the fame, I just want you, want you

Forget everything I ever wanted
All I want is to see your eyes
Feel the weight of the stones in my pockets
I just want you to know I'm fine

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Blue

I like everything that's blue
Like the color of my room
But almost every day
The skies are colored grey
I do the best that I can do
I like everything that's blue
Like when her eyes shine like the moon
Like a slap against my face, I love the aftertaste
I've got nothing left to lose

The ocean says that I can go wherever, but it lies
I tried so hard to be myself despite this weather
We're up all night 'cause we don't like the treasure
That we find, I'll write the wrongs that wrote to get us back together

I-I-I-I, I-I
I tried so hard to be myself despite this weather
I-I-I-I, I-I
I tried so hard to be myself despite this weather

I like everything that's blue
Like the TV when it's news
I'm trying not to rest, but I'm lying on my bed
With myself inflated bruise
I like everyth-, wait

I'll keep you from my heart, far away from harm
Got teeth along my arms when I hold you
I'll keep you in the dark, where I don't know where you are
It's so hard, but I have to
So run away from me, I'm not what you see
Tearing down the lights in my bedroom
It's better if I'm blind and I don't know where to find you

The ocean says that I can go wherever, but it lies
I tried so hard to be myself despite this weather
We're up all night 'cause we don't like the treasure
That we find, I'll write the wrongs that wrote to get us back together

I-I-I-I, I-I
I tried so hard to be myself despite this weather
I-I-I-I, I-I
I tried so hard to be myself despite this weather

Blue
If only I had thought it through
I'm running out of breath, and it seems as if you're deaf
I liked everything with you

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Lucid (interlude)

I'm wide awake, wide awake, oh
I'm wide awake, wide awake
I'm wide awake, wide awake, oh
I'm wide awake, wide awake

I'm wide awake, wide awake, I don't feel fear
Tidal waves of what I hate but I'm still right here
Wide awake, I'm wide awake, I don't feel fear
I'm not afraid of what you say
I said I'll stay right here

I'm wide awake, wide awake (lucid dream), oh
I'm wide awake, wide awake (lucid dream)
I'm wide awake, wide awake, oh
I'm wide awake, wide awake (lucid dream)

I'm wide awake, wide awake, I don't feel fear
Tidal waves of what I hate but I'm still right here
Wide awake, I'm wide awake, I don't feel fear
I'm not afraid of what you say
I said I'll stay right here

I'm wide awake, wide awake (lucid dream), oh
I'm wide awake, wide awake (lucid dream)
I'm wide awake, wide awake (lucid dream), oh
I'm wide awake, wide awake (lucid dream)
I'm wide awake, wide awake, oh
I'm wide awake, wide awake

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Bad Things

Oh, shit, here we go again
It's the same old lies, same instrument
Like la-la-la, I'm broken and I'm dead
(Doesn't ever really happen to me, anyway)
If I'd known I'd be where I'm at today, I think I'd give it all away
I wish I'd never left my home

But when I hear you say my name, tell me, everything's okay
I forget about the world, I forget about the pain
'Cause when I see you wear my shirt, listen to your calming words
I remember that the rain doesn't hurt me when I say, ayy ayy

I love it, I love it, I love the fear
I love the way you make the bad things run away (ayy ayy, ayy ayy)
I love it, I love it, I love the tears, I love the pain
You make the bad things run away

Shut the f*ck up, I don't wanna hear your voice, no
Save your breath or you gon' give yourself a sore throat
I need a little bit of space, I wanna lay low
It's okay, I'll make it one day, oh
Guilty, I'm a counterfeit musician
I only say the things I say so you will listen
Some say it's the product of a vision I don't f*ck with
It's not my decision

But when I hear you say my name, tell me, everything's okay
I forget about the world, I forget about the pain
'Cause when I see you wear my shirt, listen to your calming words
I remember that the rain doesn't hurt me when I say, ayy-ayy

I love it, I love it, I love the fear
I love the way you make the bad things run away (ayy-ayy, ayy-ayy)
I love it, I love it, I love the tears, I love the pain
You make the bad things run away

I'm better off all by myself
No one to call, no one will help
No one at fault, no one can quell
No, I'm not well
No, I'm not well
Irrational, inadequate
Unnatural, inanimate
I'll never change
I wanna quit
So full of rage
So full of shit

I love it, I love it, I love the fear
I love the way you make the bad things run away
I love it, I love it, I love the tears, I love the pain
You make the bad things run away

But when I hear you say my name
I know everything's okay
I forget about the world, I forget about the pain
When I'm struggling to breathe
And all I think are bad things
I remember that you're mine, I remember everything

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Camouflage

Promise me, promise me
You won't try to leave
Fall asleep, fall asleep
Hiding in my dreams
Camouflage, camouflage
Just where I hide my thoughts
Sabotage, sabotage
You know what I'm not

It always starts with my heart, I can feel it go
Skip two beats, a few days, few weeks
I get obsessed, I get stressed, feel the weight, on my chest
It's too much to bear, I don't wanna care, so I wear

Camouflage, camouflage
It's how I hide my thoughts for you
I feel so awful when I run
But it's harder knowing that you weren't the one

It's like a fire in my throat, I can barely speak
Every single breath
Babe, it burns, and it hurts, and you're making it worse
But I want to see you again

Camouflage, camouflage
It's how I hide my thoughts for you
I feel so awful when I run
But it's harder knowing that you weren't the one

I say it all the time
Falling in and out of line
I'm running far, baby
I'm a superstar, maybe in another life
We gon' make it out alive
We're counting stars
Say we had it from the start

Camouflage, camouflage
It's how I hide my thoughts for you
I feel so awful when I run
But it's harder knowing that you weren't the one

(You were the one for me, it's true)
(I feel lonely without you)
(You were the only one)
(The only one I'd choose)

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Nightmare

I'm too emotional, I have to let you go
I haven't cleaned my room since last time you came home
And everyday that passes by, makes it so much harder to enjoy my life
Though, it's part of growing older
I'm sleeping with the lights off
It's better, if I'm blind so I can get you off my mind, 'cause

Every time I see you smile, I die a little bit
Heard that you've been doing well, I wonder who you're with
I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare
But every time I see those eyes
I wonder if you know you're keeping me up late at night
I don't know where to go
I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare

I'm too impulsive, I didn't mean to call again
I wasn't thinking straight last night at 3AM
I've been having trouble tryna fall asleep
Melatonin by my side, but my will is weak
Keepin' notions that I'm fine so I don't need
Medicated remedies, f*ck benzodiazepines

Every time I see you smile, I die a little bit
Heard that you've been doing well, I wonder who you're with?
I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare
But every time I see those eyes
I wonder if you know you're keeping me up late at night
I don't know where to go
I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare

How do I try? I don't why I wanna fall in love
I wanna die, every time I see you parking up
Forget about the fights, remember the nights we had, it's not enough
I wanna lie, pretend I'm alright, but

Every time I see you smile, I die a little bit
Heard that you've been doing well, I wonder who you're with?
I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare
But every time I see those eyes
I wonder if you know you're keeping me up late at night
I don't know where to go
I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare

Every time I see you smile, I die a little bit
Heard that you've been doing well, I wonder who you're with?
I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare
But every time I see those eyes
I wonder if you know you're keeping me up late at night
I don't know where to go
I pretend, I don't care, I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare, nightmare

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Trauma

Growing up I never had a lot of money
I never had a phone
Always was a little hungry
Used to find it hard to sleep
When I could hear my mother sobbing
I was ten back then
I didn't have a room
Had to buy used shoes
I hid behind tunes
To avoid abuse
And every time I fell
I would blame it on myself
Even if it was an accident

Maybe it's not what I want
Oh, I've seen better days
And the moment f*cking sucks
But I'll be damned if I don't stop
And, honestly, why not
When nobody gives a f*ck

But sometimes I just can't help myself
I wanna give up trying
And start doing something else
Sometimes I just get overwhelmed
I know it's in my mind
But I think I need some help

'Cause sometimes I just can't help myself
I was an outcast
Thrown out to dry and get laughed at
Too shy to talk about home
I always thought life was supposed to be cold
And, oh, I've been so
Lost without hope
I got a window in my head, it's a casket
You know I be wishing I was dead, but I mask it

Maybe it's not what I want
Oh, I've seen better days
And the moment f*cking sucks
But I'll be damned if I don't stop
And, honestly, why not
When nobody gives a f*ck

But sometimes I just can't help myself
I wanna give up trying
And start doing something else
Sometimes I just get overwhelmed
I know it's in my mind
But I think I need some help

Because it's all I know
My hands around my throat
Pray that I won't let go
This time around
But every single time
I try to shut my eyes
I see the reason why
I'm not alone

Sometimes I just can't, but sometimes I just can't help myself
I wanna give up trying
And start doing something else
Sometimes I just get overwhelmed
I know it's in my mind
But I think I need some help
Sometimes I just can't help myself

(I think we got it)

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Before I Die

Alright, one and two and three and four, and

One month left, my doctor shakes his head, yeah
He don't look so good, he should just rest
Ba-da-bum, bum-bum-bum
Trying hard not to vomit on my bed
He says, I should say goodbye to all my friends

Before I die, need a little bit, I just need a little bit more
Before I die, I just wanna be rich, I don't wanna die poor
Before I die, wanna marry her and then I wanna divorce
Before I die, I don't wanna die young, I just wanna live more

(Two, three, four)
Let's just keep on staying up past two (that's a bad idea)
I still see cigarettes by your shoes (ew, clap, clap)
When are we going to the zoo? (Bitch, when the f*ck we leaving?)
There's so many things that I want to do with you

Before I die, need a little bit, I just need a little bit more
Before I die, I just wanna be rich, I don't wanna die poor (oh-oh)
Before I die, wanna marry her and then I wanna divorce
Before I die, I don't wanna die young, I just wanna live more (oh-oh)

Bitch, take me back to Tokyo
Can you take me where I wanna go?

Before I die, need a little bit, I just need a little bit more
Before I die, I just wanna be rich, I don't wanna die poor (oh-oh)
Before I die, wanna marry her and then I wanna divorce
Before I die, I don't wanna die young, I just wanna live more (oh-oh)

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Homesick

It feels like a year ago
The last time I saw you
I think that you weren't home
The last time I called you
I hope that you think of me
Baby, I'm homesick

And I'd call you again
But I swear I've been busy
I'm losing my friends
They won't say that they miss me
I'll sleep when I'm dead
Until then I'm just homesick
(Baby, I'm homesick)

I'm trying my hardest
Even then you know that I might not be free
(Baby, I'm homesick)
I've got responsibilities
But, baby, I'm homesick
(Baby, I'm homesick)

And I'd call you again
But I swear I've been busy
I'm losing my friends
They won't say that they miss me
I'll sleep when I'm dead
Until then I'm just homesick
(Baby, I'm homesick)

And I saw your last text
I hope that you weren't wasted
I like to pretend that we're back in your basement
We'll lie on your twin-size bed
I'm just homesick
(Baby, I'm homesick)

So take me home

(Baby, I'm homesick)
(Baby, I'm homesick)
(Baby, I'm homesick)
(Baby, I'm homesick)

And I'll see you again
Even if it is the last thing that I do
I know we'll make it through
But I'm homesick

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King Of Nothing

Can you hear the church bells ring?
Here he comes, it's the king of kings
Can you hear the church bells ring?
Here he comes, it's the king of kings
His hotel burns, made of ash and strings
He's got all he wants, and lost everything

Tell me, how to stop, I wanna get off
Nervous when I talk about it
See, I'm strugglin' with thoughts
What I used to love
Losin' patience and the passion
Used to think about my younger self
Before I had the wealth
Back when we got donations
Just a kid feelin' what he felt
Dealin' with the issues that he manifested
Tried his best with what he got
But he got lost in what he's not
No, he's not a singer and he doesn't talk
He just got caught in a sub-plot
Soon the shot was over, turned into a loner
Started losin' power in his own songs
He was just a poser, losin' his composure
Lookin' for the closure that he never got

Can you hear the church bells ring?
Here he comes, it's the king of kings
His hotel burns, made of ash and strings
He's got all he wants, and lost everything

Everything about this life
Don't feel the same as it has no eyes alone
I would rather be at home
And I could laugh, and I could try, and live this life for a thousand times
I know, I would rather be at home