Bzzy - Truth Hurts Lyrics

Verse 1
Suicidal thoughts in my apartment
This thing called “love” can be exhausting
I found too much comfort in darkness
I'm talkin from the heart but your heartless so
I'm sippin tryin' to get my mind off this
To find myself in the pussy I was lost in
Disagreeing with both sides of my conscious
Like do I want this? Nah f*ck it I'm off this so
I hit the hotel bar and get a glass of whiskey
As I vented to the strangers sittin next to me
The good shit I messed up startin to mess with me
The shit I got away with startin' to get to me
I'm on some Kirko shit
Me being perfect that's a lie I gotta keep up with
My girl thinks that I'm an angel my demons no stranger
She admires the girl that I sneak out with
In my music I talk about other women
Affairs I be havin like she ain't listening
I say it's just words when she ask about it
She believes my lies and we laugh about it..
Damn I'm hurtin myself
The love you deserve, I'm searchin for myself
How could I give it to you if I ain't got it for me
Girl this isn't just a verse I'm crying out for help
But I tell her these are only words
And I'm ridin through the city with a friend of hers
Tryna find better words
I don't know what to tell you cause the truth hurts

Chorus
Before I jump I'll leave these words behind
I've been way too hard on myself
I can lie tryna say I'm fine
But I'm tired and I need truth
I'm comin home I'm comin home
Would you please leave the door unlocked
So I could wake up by your side
One last time
Before I jump…

Verse 2
I told one of my best friends that Imma kill him for f*ckin up my money
Was I wrong for it?
Or maybe my friends ain't really my friends they just know where I'm goin
So they string along for it
Damn.
I'm tired of ringing alarms
I'm tired of hearing disses from people I help put on
How quickly they forget really f*cks with my heart
That shit just really tears me apart
Betrayal is something I don't really forgive
yet I let them back in for them to backstab me again
and if I die before I turn this album in
all I ask is give my kid publishing
look I'm just tryan find what I lost
suicide bomber tryna die for a cause
nothing last forever that's something that's hard to ignore
I love her but I can't stay around for divorce
Cause when the truth comes out
I don't wanna see you move out
Cause when the loves all gone
and depression is on
and the voodoo's gone wrong
what do you do now?
Look, I'm the modern day van Gogh
I made a pregnant woman cry, call her sorrow
Lookin in the sky now all I see is crows
My self-portrait is in the music I wrote
2 years since me and my bestfriend spoke
I called him yesterday but I heard nothing back doe
I'm not saying that I'm not an asshole
It's hard for me to let the past go
I'm hangin on a tight rope
Caroline is gone I'm still suicidal
Which goes to show, it wasn't her it was me
Before I jump I need y'all to see

Chorus
Before I jump I'll leave these words behind
I've been way too hard on myself
I can lie tryna say I'm fine
But I'm tired and I need truth
I'm comin home I'm comin home
Would you please leave the door unlocked
So I could wake up by your side
One last time
Before I jump…

Nate Traveller
Way too many blunts as I choke
I remember back when I didn't smoke
Remember back when I didn't cope
I'm wrong but I still defend the hoax
I got it like I'm wearing papas baseball glove
Holding my shit in
Alls well but don't always end well
Practice forgiving
We wasn't perfect
I wanna let you in
But do we deserve it?
Intentions got blurry
Desire us plus the perks of our love and it irks me
Bettin on potential upsets with our worries
We fallin apart but f*ck we're worthy
Come complacent gotta get
Why was we in a hurry for man?
Show me some mercy
I done come a long way from --- and mcflurries
To home cooked meals to phone book bills and maturity
Drove our bar to obscurity
I was reckless with my actions and I can't take it back
Thoughts of my unborn
Been searchin for my answers tomorrow
And turn this carried pain and loss into laughter
For now, I bid you farewell
And say that I'll end it for another chapter

[Thanks to griffinbouchard for adding these lyrics]