Affection Video (MV)

And honestly I'm sorry if I ever caused you pain
But it will be erased with a bullet to the brain
Slit my wrist with the razor that I use to sever ties
I hate it when the girls I love most move on to the better guys
Im tired of missing people that will never miss me
See the pain inside my eyes yes It broke me
I know I'm not good enough for anyone to love me
And I'm really not that funny and most people think I'm ugly
I'm sorry that I'm not good enough
I'm sorry that I'm not that tough
But day - by day - I have to say - never to fall in love
Lately I've been feeling really ill
When you cannot sleep at night
You start to know this shits for real
You don't ever need a gun you don't need a pill
If you trynna die fall in love you'll get killed
I just want your love and affection
Playing with my heart
Yeah you got me second guessin
I just want your love and affection
Had me from the start
Yeah I thought you were a blessin
I just want your love and affection
Playing with my heart
Yeah you got me second guessin
I just want your love and affection
Had me from the start
Yeah I thought you were a blessin
But I try to smile even when it's fake
Cause deep inside my heart is screaming
Every night I lay awake
I hate looking in the mirror I hate my reflection
All these pain pills and anxiety is mixed with the depression
The clock is ticking
But the hours is feelin like seconds
If I die
Would it matter?
Meaning my existence?
Would my mom look at me the same as I had risen
I try to speak my pain out but there's no one there to listen
And while I think about you do you think about me?
As you see, I hope to breathe
Ive always lost, so I lose faith, even in the same place
Please bitch say your grace
I try to tell myself we gon make it out eventually
Standing tall, but my minds been f*cking with me mentally
Theses bitches call, they gon smoke your heart just like a chimney
Pain is temporary, I ain't trippin, you ain't shit to me
I just want your love and affection
Playing with my heart
Yeah you got me second guessin
I just want your love and affection
Had me from the start
Yeah I thought you were a blessin
I just want your love and affection
Playing with my heart
Yeah you got me second guessin
I just want your love and affection
Had me from the start
Yeah I thought you were a blessin
I am in a lot of pain, I act like it don't hurt
Feelin like I don't ever want anything except her
So much time and effort just to find we don't work
Fell in love with your vibe and for your culture
Yes I'm in love and yes I acknowledge it
Look at all the major things that we accomplished
I'll because your bitch ass had to break a f*cking promise
Now my wrist bleed as a motherf*cking punishment
Just tell me you want it back, I promise I'll give you that
Razor or a nine?
F*cking it it'll end click clack
Hoe shit you with that
Uzi we with that
Broke my heart into pieces impossible to fix that
Heard about your exes and they seem to be Trippin
Know it's a cliché, but believe me I'm different
Mixing my emotions with the things that I have been sippin
My heart always speaking but you never there listen
I just want your love and affection
Playing with my heart
Yeah you got me second guessin
I just want your love and affection
Had me from the start
Yeah I thought you were a blessin
I just want your love and affection
Playing with my heart
Yeah you got me second guessin
I just want your love and affection
Had me from the start
Yeah I thought you were a blessin