Baldwn - faded memories Lyrics

Is this for real or am I falling asleep?
Can't seem to remember what went down
Last thing I knew I had you wrapped in my arms
But now you never come around
Would you tell me if I was trapped in a wasteland, or let me travel by myself?
Stuck in a place where I cannot help but think
You've turned into someone else
I can't seem to recall
If you were here at all
You said it's all my fault
And I wish I knew why, yeah
It's four o'clock in the morning
And I'm still staring at the walls
Wondering if I'm lonely
Or if I'm hoping that you'll call
I got a lot on my mind now
I got a lot on my mind again tonight
Tryna pick up the pieces
While I'm looking through these faded memories
Now I must go and figure out what we've done
To go and lead us to disaster
I can't tell you what has happened before
But I can change what happens after
Is this a burden I must carry alone?
Another chapter left unread
But this isn't what we intended to be
It's what we're left with in the end
I can't seem to recall
If you were here at all
You said it's all my fault
And I wish I knew why, yeah
It's four o'clock in the morning
And I'm still staring at the walls
Wondering if I'm lonely
Or if I'm hoping that you'll call
I got a lot on my mind now
I got a lot on my mind again tonight
Tryna pick up the pieces
While I'm looking through these faded memories
While I'm looking through these faded memories