Bami - No Chance of Repair Lyrics

Lonely, yeah I was so lonely
Down and out for the count
Head sinking to the ground
Swallowed up in these doubts
Hating my personality
Fearing my nationality
Conscious of my mentality
Even more so the Christianity
Losing faith in humanity
Even behaving erratically
Lost all sense of direction
In desperate need for attention
For some passionate connection
Yearning for unlimited affection
Not caring about my intentions
Just looking to resolve my erections
In hopes of settling the tension
I was wallowing on my own
Reluctant to break away from this zone
Blinded by envy, seething with rage
Afraid to be caught on display
Don't want to be a disgrace
Don't want to feel so misplaced
Can't escape from all of this shame
That keeps on calling my name
I know that I'm drained
Ain't got nothing to gain
Can't you see its the pain
I'm trapped by all of these chains
Weighed down by mistakes
Surrounded by so many snakes
This is too much
I can't keep up
Right now I'm living in vain
So trust me when I say that
I can acknowledge the strain
Feel like I'm going insane
Wish that I could refrain

So full of emotion
Overwhelmed with emotion
Don't know if I'm broken
Or if I'm just open
These late nights got me drinking
Got me thinking
Got me wishing
But I'm sinking
Lower into my depths of despair
With no chance of repair, yeah

No chance of repair
I need all the prayers
No nothing compares
When I lay it bare
Forget all my cares
I'll admit that is rare
Put my feelings out there
Too scared to declare
Guess I need to prepare
For all of the judgemental stares
Don't think that I'm unaware
Of those thoughts going off in your head
I'm lacking the focus
Lost all my drive
I'm feeling hopeless
Time to hide
Too many emotions blocking me off
I can't control them, it's at a loss
I can't even zone them, at any cost
Away from my heart
This pain has torn me apart
Now I'm off the chart
Tell me can I restart
I'm tired of making my path
Just look at the aftermath
Been wearing too many masks
You and I know it's a farce
You and I know that life's too sparse
I can't let go of the past
No matter how hard I try
I know it won't last
Too much time has passed
Got no energy to cast
Don't know what to do
Just need some kind of break-through
I know that I'm not a quitter
But I've never been so bitter
So hurt that I struggle to listen
Missing out on that wisdom
I'm in such a state
My head's all over the place
Forever trying to be brave
When all I need is his grace
I don't know what to say
I'm feeling so dismayed
I'd rather be honest
Sorry for sounding moronic
It's better than being dishonest
I just had to confess
I know that I'm not at my best
I gotta get through this test
And prove that I'm not like the rest
In order for me to progress

No chance of repair
I need all the prayers, yeah