Excuse me doc, do you have a moment?
"Mr. B it looks like your soul is cold, like your heartbeat is frozen.
You look weary, and your grey hair started showing.
If you wanna keep going, then maybe you should keep your mind open."
Now I'm stuck in this predicament.
Way over my head, I made myself think there was nothing missing.
Ignored my failures, didn't care, I wasn't listening.
Now I'm out of gas looking for purpose to be driven with.
I'm more tired than a Michelin.
I'm done, this is serious, not only did I run out of gas again,
But I've managed to do almost everything I told everyone I would never do,
Like I drinked something with acid in.
I wish I was a kid again, like I knew nothing more.
Like I didn't know who I am, what I'm like behind my door.
I took so many shortcuts for me to feel better soon.
But I never moved at all, I'm still here, in the same room.
I think something is holding me back.
All this psychological combat.
I'm barely working towards that platinum plaque.
Goddamn, inspiration where you at?
I've become nothing, but a consumer and a copycat.
A cheater, and cowering rat.
I'm better than that. I'm better than that.
For the longest time I blamed everyone else,
But the only one I can blame is myself.
So now I'm stuck here paying the price.
I guess it's up to me now, how am I going to live my life?
Will I continue to sit here, and look like I'm lost
Or am I going to get up and pay the cost?
I can't just sit here and reminisce the past,
Because the future is coming and it's coming fast.
I don't wanna lay awake in my bed wanting to shout.
I don't wanna be ashamed of what comes out of my mouth.
I have to stop lying and make you doubt
If anything I say is true, cause truth really is what I'm all about.
I still got some issues I really need to let go.
I gotta fix some bad situations with a few folks.
Although I've learned to keep my emotions under control.
Knowing no one cares, since everyone look at people through a keyhole.
I think something is holding me back.
All this psychological combat.
I'm barely working towards that platinum plaque.
Goddamn, inspiration where you at?
I've become nothing, but a consumer and a copycat.
A cheater, and cowering rat.
I'm better than that. I'm better than that.
This is it.
I'm done being defined by my own shortcomings.
I will no longer hold myself down because of my past mistakes.
Even though I'll forever be broken but blessed.