The Big C - Scars (Cmix) Lyrics

It's been a few years since you left me
Lately things been getting sketchy
Got my girl trying to plan a wedding
But lately life been messy
Got this gun to my temple
Crying over instrumentals
Over thinking got me scheming
Man I want you back
My haters coming to attack
I'm praying that you got my back
Haters say my rhymes are wack
But they won't say it to my face
All this hate
Man it's driving me insane
Man my girl just gave me brain
She ain't with me for the fame
Nah this ain't a f*cking game
I'm insane
Numb me till I blow my f*cking brain
Shit has changed
Your daughter playing games
She was the only person I had left
But it's funny my girlfriend's birthday is the date of your death
Lately I've been waking up in a cold sweat
Dreams of me dying got me asking god is it my time yet
Mother f*ckers be telling me their 2 cents
Like I asked nah mother f*cker let me vent

And honestly I not even trying to rhyme this shit
I'm just so use to writing music that this shit makes sense
Uncle where you went
It just doesn't make no sense
You were here then you gone the next
Now I'm stressed
Man unc you were the best
Bout to get your name tatted on my chest
May you Rest In Peace
Falling to me knees
Man it's getting hard to breathe
I don't know where I'm going
But for you I keep on flowing
I'm just tryna make you proud
Uncle I hope you hear me now
I'm screaming real loud
Looking up at the clouds
Turn quiet as a mouse
One last song then I'm out
Focus on my school
Cause I'm trying to make some moves
Best believe it was all for you
I wish you were here to tell me what to do
F*ck it now you're gone
Now I hit the bong
Man I hate this f*cking song
I swear to god it feels so wrong
Still haven't accepted that you gone
I just hope it ain't for long

Verse three this one for me
I don't f*ck with the drink
But lately I've been sipping lean
Smoking weed
Chasing down a dream
I've been scheming
Creeping on the come up
Eye stay open till the sun up
I'm just trying to make you proud
I wish I could hear your voice
Call you up one last time
Tell you that I'm doing fine
Well maybe that's a lie
I'm off an edible
My girl on the line asking "where you go?"
Have her on mute cause I'm crying
Honestly just feel like dying
Gotta focus on my writing
Watch this song body perfect timing
The numbers keep on climbing
But I'm doing this to vent
Help get some shit off my chest
I use to wanna be the best
But now I just wanna be with you
I promise we will be together soon
Sitting all alone in my room
Missing you
Without you I feel blue
Man I hope you hear this f*cking tune
I hope you hear this tune