Blu3 - Not Myself Lyrics

You know I've been going through a lot of shit lately
You know sometimes I be feeling
I be feeling like I'm losing my mind like I'm operating outside of my body
You know sometimes I be having to tell myself to chill
Sometimes I gotta slow down you know
Sometimes I gotta you know roll one up and remind myself who the f*ck I am

Ain't been myself these days
Been feeling down
I'm on the throne with nobody to share the crown

On my way up but for some reason I'm still down
How do you smile when all you wanna do is cry
Nowhere to go you ain't got no one to ride
On my way up and stressed as f*ck but I'll be fine
On my way up and stressed as f*ck but I'll be fine

I spent a lot of time and money making sure that I was noticed
Let the opinion that my peers control where I put my focus
Wasn't till years later when I really paid attention
That it don't matter who be watching as long as you make them listen
My jersey hung off in the rafters
That pussy became my f*cking master
But towards the end you flipped the script
Well that's it the final chapter
Been through a ton of pain and scars
No I can't claim it all on you
But you was the one that confided in it
The keeper of all my secrets
Was told communication failed so I went off the deep end
What we had was more than love though
You loved the way I beat it
It was your thoughts that had me stuck
And now I'm stumped because your smart ass wanna act like you don't even know what's up
Like you don't even know what's up
What the f*ck

Ain't been myself these days been feeling down
My squad be with me but it's like no one's around
I'm on this throne with nobody to share the crown
On my way up but for some reason I'm still down
How do you smile when all you wanna do is cry
Nowhere to go cause you ain't got no one to ride
I'm getting money ain't no one to whine and die
On my way up and stress as f*ck but I'll be fine

I've learned no matter what life will never be peaches
No matter what you do there will always be them leeches
Teachers taught and on Sunday we heard the preachers
But all I wanted was y'all standing in the bleachers
With me coming at you speakers like a motherf*cker
Man this life here been a motherf*cker
It's full of these out to get you's out here trying to turn you to another sucker
I know this shit can get you down but pick your head up brother
This life has been a motherf*cker
I know this shit can get you down but pick your head up brother
Man this life has been a motherf*cker
But pick your head up brother

Ain't been myself these days been feeling down
My squad be with me but it's like no one's around
I'm on this throne with nobody to share the crown
On my way up and for some reason I'm still down
How do you smile when all you wanna do is cry
Nowhere to go cause you ain't got no one to ride
I'm getting money ain't no one to whine and die
On my way up and stress as f*ck but I'll be fine