Pain [Explicit Album Version] Video (MV)

I finally moved out my momma house
Got a happy home
Only thing f***ed up, Daddy gone (Gone forever man)
Listen up this is real s*** (Real s***)
It's f***ed up when u got nobody to share it with (F***ed up)
Give my last so my grandma can see me now (See me now)
Smilin tellin everybody bout her grandbaby (her grandbaby)
T-Lady hold on all I got is you (Mama)
It's f***ed up what I done put me and my mama through
What's happenin' Ivory I know you lookin' down watchin' me
Everyday I got yo kids fresh from head to feet (All of em)
Wish I can put u in the Bentley with the brown ?
I wish we never would've went out to that club
On the road to riches mane lost a flock of n****s
? a whole block of n****s
N****s bite the hand that feed em I done seen it all
Jus got a call, Slo dead, not my f***in dawg

I never thought this pain last this many years
I, I never thought this pain last this many years
Still in tears
I, I never thought this pain last this many years

I lost my daddy in a heartbeat
Real talk eyes turnin right in front me
Ever since I saw that s***, it hunt me
Pray for me cause I shake in my f***in sleep
Wish ?
I shoulda put him under my wing and I miss him n****
I told ? way back stop ridin with ya pack
He ain't listen
And now my n**** right back in penitentury he don't listen
I lost Ivory and it f***ed me up
My whole life changed
N**** put me up in beast mode
My heart cold
And as the years role
I wish that he could have everything I got
And a lil mo'
Yo kids love me n****
My kids and yo kids call each other sistera and brothers
You forever my lil hustler
Just saw yo gangsta at the car lot n**** and a tear dropped n****

I never thought this pain last this many years
I, I never thought this pain last this many years
Still in tears
I, I never thought this pain last this many years

Seem like it was yesterday
The mo money I get this s*** hurt
I thought that would take the stress away
To see u smilin with yo chain countin money n****
When Trina pulled you on stage you was stuntin' n****
But through it all mane you kno how we rock n****
From the yo to the block to the hospital
Never again would I have another big dawg
But ya mama and kids I got em all but I

I never thought this pain last this many years
I, I never thought this pain last this many years
Still in tears
I, I never thought this pain last this many years