boy march - AWKWARD PAUSE... Lyrics

Awkward pauses on the phone
She forgot the rhythm and style of how I talk
I forgot the reason I lied about myself
We forgot the reason we bonded in the dark
On John's carpet, should've denied every thought
And applied all my discretion
And that urge should have become the loudest warning to my blessings
I was focused on myself, so I scrolled past every message
Should've followed intuition, now I lie out on the stretcher
Was it all
Was it all
For nothing
Was it all
Was it all
For nothing
That clusterf*ck of emotions
I'm high as hell on the FaceTime rolling
You left the city, I'm sick of you
Until that memory pops up
All I need is atonement
All I need is a moment alone with you
Hands where they shouldn't go
You know shit that you shouldn't know
Every song that I should've wrote
Every time where I should've known
Plus you hate the fact that I'm smoking
You hate the fact that I'm honest and never play with emotions
You hate the fact that the harder you push, I stay a boulder
You hate the fact that you just can't hate me
You hate the fact that you just can't erase me
I'll give you reasons
I'll give you reasons
Was it all
Was it all
For nothing
Was it all
Was it all
For nothing
I'll give you reasons