Hospital Video (MV)

Here I sit, alone
In the middle of the kitchen floor
Blood is still in the sink
I need it to stay, just a bit longer

I cried into the arm of the chair
I stay there, my arm falls asleep

The house is empty
But creaks in the walls
Make me think you're upstairs

And on my side of the bed
In my chair
My back contorts, I am awake

My friends, I let you down again
Please forgive me
I'm not healthy

I clench my teeth
And they shake
What if I grab the glass
And it breaks?

I am afraid of facing
Who I am
Through the mirror
In your eyes

And I don't wanna hold hands
How can I convince myself?
That I can be warm
I can live without your love

Contrary to my signals
My body language
I didn't want you to leave

Oh, I just want to lie you
Down on the table again

I'm still not where I wanna be
Not in an ambulance
But a hospital
I check you in

And there they built machines
So you could breathe
And it all felt complete

When the line went flat
No alarms went off
No cause for concern

This is my nightmare
This is the truth
Clawing at the cliff
What do I have to lose?

I am not asleep
I am very aware of what is happening
I want this to stop